What the fuck is wrong with me?

Twenty one

Harry's Pov

Mum ringing...

It was weird for my mum to be calling as she usually just texted me if she wanted a chat. Nonetheless I picked up the phone and forced a cheery voice,
"Hi mum! To what do I owe the pleasure?"
"Oh god darling..." her voice broke as she spoke as if she was about to burst into tears which immediately alerted me "What's wrong are you okay?"
"What have you been doing to yourself?"
Surely she can't be referring what I think she's talking about.
"I've just had a call from Simon, they're all worried about you and now so are we!"
I froze just like the day the guys found out, I felt lost and confused and most of all angry. How dare Simon call my mother behind my back and spread my personal business like that? Without thinking I threw my phone to the floor at such force the screen shattered upon impact. I practically howled Simon's name in rage and my door swung open revealing him standing there with bloodshot eyes. I screamed at the top of my lungs "I HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY" the rest of the guys were now gathered behind Simon on the landing, concerned looks covering their faces. "I didn't know what else to do I just wanted to help." Simon's eyes brimmed with tears, I couldn't stand to see him upset and to know it was because of me. But I couldn't get past my anger right now and I shouted again "FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF!" I collapsed to the floor in hysterics so bad I could hardly breathe. Jj and Ethan stepped into my room and helped me up and onto my bed as I wept while Tobi, Vik and Josh took Simon somewhere else. My head was pounding, all that commotion had caused me a headache and I struggled to piece my thoughts together. My parents know, my brother knows, my sister knows. I was not ready for that. How did it go from this being my little secret to something everyone I cared for knew about so quickly? It was all out of my control. I looked down to my hands "oh." I sighed, Ethan was holding on tightly to my left hand whilst JJ was holding the right I was so lost in the drama that is -my thoughts- I only just realised what they were doing. Sure they both meant it in a reassuring way but I was finding it really hard to fight the urge to tell them to fuck off and leave me alone right now.

Ethans Pov

Fucking hell what a shit show that was! From what I'd gathered from all the shouting and crying Simon must've fucked up big-time. Well he must've done something bad to get Harry this worked up especially since these past few months it seemed like only Simon could bring a smile to Harrys face. Now, he was the one upsetting him. My skin crawled to know what it was that he did but I didn't wanna ask at the risk of setting Harry off again and I also didn't wanna leave him after his meltdown so I just stayed quiet and copied JJ in holding Bogs hand because it seemed like a nice thing to do.

Simon's Pov

Josh pushed me into my room and grabbed me by my shirt "what the fuck was that?" He spat.
Tobi pulled him off me "Josh let him speak man!" He then held out his hand to help me up  to which I accepted and once I was back on my feet Vik decided to chime in "he's not wrong though, what did you fucking do?"
In all fairness in their point of views it did look like I just majorly upset Harry well I did- fuck what have I done? I didn't mean to I didn't I didn't mean to upset him I just wanted to-
"SIMON!"
I closed my eyes expecting Josh to punch me or something but reopened them after a few seconds seeing as no hand made impact with my face. "Did you think I was going to hit you?" Josh has changed from angry shouting to concerned.
"Uhh kinda yeah."
"Simon," he huffed and stepped towards me to embrace with a quick show of friendship (a hug)  "I would never do that! I'm sorry I pushed you without letting you say what happened first"
"It's okay I deserved it." I frowned.
"So what did happen?"

Sorry this chapters abit short, and shit :/ hopefully I get over this lack of inspiration and write a few more chapters sooner rather than later! Thank you for reading !!!