It Was His (SELF-PUBLISHED)

Chapter 1

It's been a month since that incident happened and I'm now 2 months pregnant with his child.

"Nath, bakit ba tinago mo kay Apollo ang tungkol sa pagbubuntis mo?" Tinignan ako nang masinsinan ng pinsan kong si Jessie pero umiwas lang ako.

This isn't the first time I was asked by that question. And as I always do, I tried to divert the topic.

"Enrolled ka na?"

Napa-aray ako nang maramdam ko ang sakit sa braso dahil pagsapak niya sa 'kin.

"Hinay-hinay naman. Baka malaglag si baby nang wala sa oras." She rolled her eyes upon hearing my remarks.

"I don't have time for your jokes, Nath. 2 months ka ng buntis at lalaki pa 'yang tiyan mo. Sa tingin mo ba hindi mapapansin ni Apollo 'yan? Lalo na't parehas pa kayo ng pinapasukang university."

I decided to continue my studies despite my situation right now. But my brother suggested me to stay in New York when I reach 5 months of pregnancy. That time, mapapansin na kase ang umbok ng tiyan ko and as decided by my family, no other outsiders must know about it especially the Rigel family.

"He's a cheater, Jess. He doesn't deserve to know," I answered as a matter of fact.

I know it's a ridiculous reason but I don't think if he still needs to know the truth.

"But he's the father. At kahit mangkukulam pa siya, mamamatay tao, o drug lord, he needs to know the truth!"

And that's my cue to leave. Wala ng patutunguhan pa ang pag-uusap naming 'to dahil sa walang katapusang pagtatalo.

"End of conversation. I need to rest." Tatalikod na sana ako pero mabilis niya akong pinigilan sa braso.

"Kung ayaw mong sabihin sa kanya, ako ang gagawa para sa 'yo."

I calmed myself before I finally face her. I understand that she just wants the best for me because I am her cousin but her decisions are beyond limit.

"Look, I don't want to start an argument with you but you're pushing me."

"But he need to know-"

"NO! HE DOESN'T NEED TO, OKAY?!"

Bumalik lahat sa aking ala-ala lahat ng panloloko sa 'kin ng ex ko at ang ahas kong kaibigan. Bigla akong napaupo sa sofa dahil nanlalambot na naman ako. My weak side is on mode again.

"Hindi mo alam kung gaano kasakit ang pakiramdam ng maloko. Binigay ko lahat sa kanya pero ano?! Pinatulan pa niya 'yong mukhang paa kong kaibigan!"

I don't want to throw 'market words' but it irritates me.

"Fine. Alam mo, magagalit pa sana ako pero bigla mo namang inexpose agad 'yang so called mukhang paa mong friend." She mockingly smiled and turned her back on me.

"Matulog ka na, future mommy. Tomorrow is a long day again for you."

Pagka-alis niya agad akong dumiretso sa kwarto ko at doon binuhos lahat ng araw-araw kong kinikimkim. I always act strong in front of the crowd especially to my family but when I'm alone, I look like a baby who cries herself out, expecting to remove all my anxieties.

I've been trying hard to remind myself that everything is going to be alright but I always do the opposite. I can't even stop myself thinking negative things. Why does it have to be me? Hindi ko naman deserve ang lahat ng ito 'di ba?

I became a good girlfriend and a friend to the both of them by they chose to stab my back. Pero kung naaawa ako sa sarili ko, mas naaawa ako sa anak ko.