It Was His (SELF-PUBLISHED)

Chapter 8

"Grandma can we reschedule the flight?" I asked her while we're at the balcony drinking tea and feeling the cold breeze of the night.

She doesn't gaze at me as she answered, "No. My decision is final and you can't stay here any longer." Bumaba ang balikat ko sa pagkadismaya. Hindi na lang ako nagsalita at pinagmasdan ang paligid sa labas.

Pagkatapos naming kumain ng hapunan kanina ay nagpasya siyang dito muna kami para pag-usapan ang ilang mga bagay. And now, I'm so confused about what I really wanted. Before, I badly want to get away from here and escape this cruel world especially avoiding the person who caused me this but now? I don't know but it feels like I don't want to be away here, with him...

"I can sense that you have doubts in leaving, aren't you?" I can see in my peripheral vision that she's now looking at me. I gathered all my strength to face her and tell the truth.

"I don't want to leave him..."

Alam kong alam niya kung sino ang tinutukoy ko. Tila ba nagulat siya sa sinabi kong iyon pero hindi ako nagpatinad at  buo na ang desisyon kong makausap siya at sabihin ang tungkol sa anak namin. Call me stupid or desperate but I just love him that much. That no matter how he hurt me, I will still choose to be with him even though I'm not the reason of his happiness anymore.

"Alam mo ba ija? Naranasan ko na ring maloko noon."

Itinago ko ang gulat sa aking ekspresyon nang banggitin niya 'yon. Hindi muna ako nagsalita at hinayaan siyang ituloy ang kwento niya.

"Ilang beses ko siyang nahuli na may kasamaang ibang babae at sa maraming beses na 'yon, pilit ko siyang pinatawad. "

"Kase po mahal niyo?" Ramdam ko ang sakit sa kanyang boses at umiwas ito ng tingin. After a few seconds, she decided to answer me.

"Kahit minsan, hindi nagbago 'yon. Siguro nga nasa lahi na talaga natin ang pagiging tanga sa pag-ibig."

I sarcastically laughed to ease our serious talk. Kahit pala sabihin nating plastik lang ang mga tawa at ngiting pinapakita natin sa iba ay napapagaan pa rin nito ang mga tunay nating nararamdaman kahit papaano. 

"And based from my experience, this foolish love I have for that person, brought me the best gift ever and wanna know what gift is that?" Umiling ako.

"Our family."

Hindi ko pa ito mapagtanto nang mabuti nang dugtungan niya ang kanyang salita.

"Your grandfather is the man who hurt me the most but still the person who continuously give a smile on my face. Maraming taon na ang nagdaan pero ang mga masasamang ala-ala na 'yon ang nagdala sa 'min dito. Kaya sobrang swerte ko nang maipanganak ko ang mama mo dahil simula no'n ay nagtino na siya." 

A tear fell from her eyes so I immediately move towards her direction and hug her tightly. 

How I missed this feeling so much. Bata pa lang ako ay sobrang close ko na sa kanya dahil siya ang parating nagbabantay sa amin ni kuya kapag wala sina mommy. Iniisip ko nga rin na parang may pagkakapareho ang pinagdaanan niya noon sa mga pinagdadaanan ko ngayon.

But the question is, will we still end up with each other?

After our little drama session with my grandma, we decided to sleep already since it's late in the evening and she haven't rest for a while upon arriving here.

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Bakit ang bilis ng oras o araw kapag may hinhintay kang pangyayari na gusto mo ng matapos?

It looks like, I just slept on a Tuesday night and then  suddenly wake up to a Friday morning. And yes, today is Friday, the day I've been waiting for. I'm not sure about how this day will flow but might as well, do my plans instead of regretting it at the end.