Mein Herz Brennt Für Dich

Chapter 41

--------------------------------------------------Time Skip: January 21, 2002

"Where do you want to go first, Grayson?" Peter asked as we stepped inside of Disneyland. 

"Mickey Mouse!" Grayson pointed to Mickey Mouse and started running, so Peter ran after him. 

"He's a fast one," Vicky chuckled. 

"Yeah," I grabbed Till's hand. "I can't believe no one recognizes you."

"They know us-not our faces," Till said. "And that's fine. I'm fine with being here and not being bombarded by people."

I then looked over and saw that Peter and Grayson were talking to Mickey Mouse. 

"I'm scared," I told Till. 

"Why?"

"I'm going to go walk over to Peter and Grayson," Vicky said as she walked away. 

"I don't know. I just have a really bad feeling. Really scary. I don't like it."

"Describe it."

"I have this one song stuck in my head and-"

"Which one?"

"Nebel. And I just have this weird feeling and it won't go away."

"It's alright," Till squeezed my hand and we walked over to Peter. 

I started breathing heavily as we got closer to Peter. 

"Hey," Till kneeled down in front of me and rubbed my hands. "Hey, it's alright."

"I'm just so scared," I started to softly cry. "What's wrong, Till?!"

"I don't know," He stood up and pulled me into him and rubbed my back. "I don't know, Rilla."

"Make it go away."

"Maybe walking with Grayson will help? Going on some rides?"

"I want to get married, Till."

"I do, too."

"No. Right now. I want to get married to you right now. What if something happens and we're not able to-"

"Chill the fuck out," He let go of me. "What the fuck is going on?"

"I don't know," I panted. "Till, I just feel like something bad is going to happen."

"I won't let anything bad happen, okay?"

"Okay," I breathed softly. 

We walked over to Peter and Vicky and Grayson. 

"You alright?" Peter asked. 

"I'm fine," I squeezed Till's hand. "Ready to go, Grayson?"

"To a ride!" He started running off with Peter and Vicky (Peter holding one of Grayson's hand and Vicky holding the other).

"Marie Louise, you've been really quiet," Till said. 

"No, I'm excited!" She chuckled. "Are you okay, Rilla?"

"I'm fine," I said. 

We caught up to Peter and walked over to Space Mountain and waited in line. 

"Are you excited?" Marie Louise asked Grayson. 

"I'm a little scared," He said. "Dad, will you sit next to me?"

"Sure," He said. 

"I could sit with you, Marie Louise," Vicky suggested. 

"Sure," Marie Louise smiled. 

We got into roller coaster and rode the ride. During it, I could hear Marie Louise and Grayson both screaming. 

The rest of the day, we rode rides and ate. When we got back, it was really late, so we put the kids straight to sleep. 

"I'll see you tomorrow," Peter said as he left. "We're going again tomorrow, right?"

"Yes," I shut the door as he left and sat down on the couch next to Till. "Where do you want to get married?"

"Do we have to talk about this now?" He asked. "I'm really tired."

"You said that after your tour that we could plan it. It's after your tour, Till."

"I understand what I said, Rilla. We're in Disneyland right now on a vacation-why can't we just wait until we get back?"

"Do you not want to get married?"

"I never said that."

"You're acting like it!"

"No I'm not!"

"Actions speak louder than words."

"I'm sitting on the fucking couch, Rilla."

"You're ridiculous. I just wanted to plan something."

"I don't want to plan anything right now!"

I started to cry, and I stood up. "I'm done arguing. Once we get back, I'm signing us up for couple's therapy whether you like it or not."

I walked into our room, changed into my pajamas, and shut my eyes while crying. I heard the door open and shuffling around the room, then I felt the bed sink. 

"I'm sorry," Till whispered in my ear and kissed my shoulder. 

"Sorry doesn't always fix everything."

He sighed. "Goodnight."

I wanted everything back to normal, but I realized that it never would.