Mein Herz Brennt Für Dich

Chapter 42

-----------------------------------Two days later

I dropped Grayson off at school and then drove back to my house to get ready for the appointment and then dropped Keira off at Peter's mother's house. When we got back from the trip, Till and I ignored each other. It was really awkward for us, so he decided to go stay at a hotel. 

I took a shower, dried my hair, put a dress on, then checked the time and saw that it was too early. I put my hair up in a braid and then saw a paper on my dresser. I picked it up and saw that it was my story idea about the girl with solipsism syndrome. I ran down the stairs and I started typing the first chapter on the computer. 

The ideas flew to me. It would start off as when she was a little girl, she watched her dad get hit by a car. Her mother became an alcoholic and she never had any other siblings (it was just her and her mom). Her mom's addiction got to bad to the point where she had to live with her grandmother for a little while. 

As she got older, she thought that everyone around her were just figments of her imagination, but then she pushed that thought away thinking about how stupid that was. She got into a fight at school when she was in high school because someone called her a slut, so she punched the guy over and over again, and she enjoyed it. She didn't mind because in that moment, she felt as if the guy wasn't able to feel pain-it was almost as if he wasn't real. 

After I finished writing all that in a chapter with more detail, I realized that I was running late. I grabbed my purse and sped off to the office. When I arrived, Till was already in the office, so I sat down next to him. 

"Sorry, I was late-I was going something," I chuckled. 

"What were you doing?" Till asked. 

"Writing something."

"What were you writing?"

"A story I came up with."

"What is it about?"

"Till, we're here for us-not to talk about my story. I'll tell you about it later."

"So, who called and set up the appointment?" Jen (the therapist) asked. 

"I did," I replied. 

"And why is that?" She grabbed out her notebook and started writing stuff down. 

"Well, Till was on tour for a little while. His band is really good and they want to promote themselves and put on concerts. When he left, I was really lonely. I missed him everyday and I couldn't stop thinking about him."

"Were you able to communicate?"

"Yes."

"How?"

"We called each other-but that was the problem."

"How so?"

"We would always argue every single time we talked."

"About what?"

"I would get mad at him for not being here and then he would defend himself-that type of shit. But, we always ended up making up in the end."

"Why would you schedule an appointment, then? Till, I would like you to answer this one. That way I can know if you really understand why we're here because by the looks of it, you don't want to be here."

"We recently went to Disneyland as a Christmas present for her son," He folded his arms and leaned back. Everything was fine and wonderful. We got back from the first day in Disneyland (it was a long day and I was really tired). We sat down on the-the couch and she me when I wanted to get married and I was shocked. We had just gotten back and she was asking about marriage!"