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Warning: Self-Harm

He was gone. It has been 5 days and no sign of him. I will never forget the day he kissed me. His lips were perfect, and everything you needed to keep happy throughout the day, but he left. Just like that a couple of days later. I haven't been receiving any notes either. Maybe the stalker gave up because I wasn't that interesting anyway. I just missed Soobin, each day, I would wake up and hope for his return, and when he did for once in years, he left once again. I brushed strands of hair that hung in front of my face behind my ears. I stood at the door. I slipped on my boots, and I left the house to talk a walk and to clear my mind. Today I chose to walk a different way. During my walk, I looked up, and my eyes met the forest. During Summer, the forest trees are just duplicating tall green things, and during winter, they are just dead. As kids, Soobin always told me he would run away with me when we get older, and we will live together in the forest. I never knew why Soobin wanted that to happen, but every time he told me about the plan he made for us, I would just agree. 

Emily ran up to me as I was walking home. I didn't want to deal with the girl.  "What did you do to my Soobin?!" she yelled angrily. Emily was fuming with anger and clutched her white leather wallet tightly, "I didn't do anything to him", I responded, trying to remain calm around the angry lady. "you have been hanging out with him so much. Did you kidnap him?!" she screamed again. I crossed my arms, staring into her eyes, "he left; I did nothing." I stated. Emily shook her head and looked down, "did you make him cheat?" she asked softly. She didn't sound angry anymore. I didn't know if she planned to yell again. "no, he kissed me, but you cheated first." I remarked, and she looked down. "you don't understand the situation. I'll tell you sometime soon," she told and left. A pathway was forming of her footprints in the white snow. I didn't think she could sound so gentle. I stood there for a few seconds, trying to process everything that just happened. What situation did I not understand? There might be something going on between them this whole time, and I never knew.  

I sat at my desk, trying to think of the situation that could be happening. Nothing came to mind. It could be anything, and Soobin kept something from me this whole time and didn't bother telling me at all, and now he's gone again for no one knows how long. I remembered the times I'd use to blame myself for the disappearance of Soobin. The memories hit me like a truck back into my mind. I picked up the scissors I kept in my draw under the endless amount of pens I never sorted out. I thought for a second, and then I ruined my skin by cutting it. Blood began to form from the cut, but I kept going—bit by bit, and more blood formed as I kept cutting my skin like paper. The red liquid began to drip onto the floor, and before I knew it, a puddle formed beneath my feet. I was about to continue when I heard a soft voice call me "Y/N?...." Hayoon's voiced filled my ears as I glanced at the door to see Hayoon gripping on the doorknob with widened eyes at the sight he walked in on. I frantically placed the scissors on the desk and placed a tissue over the wound, "are you ok?" he questioned and grabbed my left wrist and took me to sit on the bed. He made me keep the tissue on the wound as he went off to get bandaids. When he returned, I was still there. He grabbed the tissue and cleaned some of the blood off, and slowly but carefully placed the bandaids on. "there no more", he giggled as he finished and ran off, he took his time to shut the door carefully and kept running to his room on the same level. 

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Hello there, sorry this part was short.  I didn't know how to add to it. I still hoped you enjoyed it.