Their little light

Chapter 1

Why is my life such a repetitive cycle that is a on going misery. I just wish to feel true happiness and true love as sad as it sounds .in my life I would be described as the the quiet shy innocent girl who is to nice to stand up for herself and no one would notice if I was there or not .

I'm by far not a stand out in the crowd I blend in until the point where I am invisible to others .I just want to live out my fantasy's in my head and not face the real world.

Starting a new school is hard enough for anyone let alone me I can barley have a conversation without stuttering over my words .

waking up I've been a ball of nerves all morning .I live with just my older brother Nicolas he's 25 and is my only family left .he is quite protective over me since that night 6 years ago. He has become my guardian until I'm old enough but I'm only just turned 16 not long ago . That was a miserable day for me cause it marked the 6th year anniversary of my parents death.

Dragged out of my thoughts I heard Nicolas calling me " hurry you don't want to be late on your first day do you "

 I quickly scurried into the car which takes a lot of effort to climb into it because of my small stature at only 4ft 11 . I put on my seat belt and gazed out of the window my thoughts swirling threw my head at all the possible scenarios that could happen. Leaning my head on the window I shut my eyes and played with the ends of my waist length blonde hair. Time seemed to fly by cause the car came to a halt and I slowly adjusted my eyes to the light again ,to look up at my brothers face

He stared into my worried eyes and rubbed my head as he always had done "it's gonna be ok I promise it will get easier try to ease your mind a bit " 

I slowly nodded my head and took a deep breath ,opened the car door and climbed out taking one last look at my brothers reassuring smile I waved at him then shut the door turning around to stare at the building I front of me ,my heart was racing . I shut my eyes tight and took a deep breath in and opened them again to start walking towards the building called school avoiding looking anywhere else but at my feet.

Opening the doors I looked at the crowd of other students talking with there friends .the atmosphere was very loud and noisy. As I do more listening then talking I've become more observant with practice just taking in the surroundings. Maybe it is my way of coping with my paranoia.

Following the signs on the wall I make my way towards the office to get my time table . I finally made it to a door with the sign office above it ,I pushed open the door and made my way towards the desk it was quite a tall desk, only my shoulder upwards could be seen. The lady must have heard me cause her head snapped toward my direction her facial expression went from a fierce glare ,then her face softened and she had a warming smile upon her face .

She instantly made her way towards me "you must be the new student in assuming you must be wanting your time table dear " 

I nodded at her quickly trying to avoid using my voice as much as possible whilst rubbing my hands together to keep my nerves under control as I struggle speaking to anyone other than my brother . 

She went over to some draws and pulled out a sheet of paper then handed it to me " have a good first day here dear I'm sure you will do big things at this school I've got a feeling " she gave me a genuine smile and I could tell in her eyes that she meant what she said .

 I smiled at her and waved her good bye and made my way towards my first lesson which was English ,I genuinely didn't mind English cause I could write down my thoughts instead of trying to speak them .I expressed myself easier that way. I must have been lost in my own thoughts cause I soon arrived at the door to my English room.

I cautiously opened it peaking in to see some students chattering away.a man I'm assuming is the teacher sat at the front of the class at his desk his head lifted up to look at me. All these teacher seem to have a six sense as if they can feel when someone else enters a room. He smiled at me and signalled me to come to him. I walked over to his desk he was a older gentleman but he didn't seem to act like it by the amount of energy and enthusiasm that he had but he also has a don't mess with me look about him to .

"You must be the new student well welcome I'm sure you will enjoy it here ummm " he looked at me sort of wanting me to tell him my name.

" my name's Rosabella " I rushed out in one breath that came out in a whisper

The man just looked at me with wide shocked eyes gaping at me