Collision

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its been three months since i got out of the hospital and my birthday is tomorrow. i was never one to enjoy my birthday. it always was bland in my house growing up so i never celebrated it. "baby you okay?" Colson asked walking into our room. "yea just i don't know. this whole being paralyzed thing sucks" i said. "i know. but that's how your life is supposed to go i guess" he said sitting down next to me. "that album is still at number one" i said laughing. after it came out everyone went wild. it's been number one for three months and it's crazy. "we have a little gig tomorrow on SNL and they want us to sing afterglow" he said. "okay. when are we leaving?" i asked. "at 7 tonight" he said. "okay. can you pack for me?" i asked. "of course baby" he said getting up and starting to put some clothes into my duffle bag.
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"and tonight please welcome one of the most amazing couples we know Machine Gun Kelly and Phoenix Merton" the guy said. "whats up SNL?" Colson said. "alright so we are going to sing our most popular song for y'all tonight" i said.
Phoenix, Colson, both

Stop the clocks, it's amazing
You should see the way the light dances off your hair
A million colours of hazel, golden and red
Saturday morning is fading
The sun's reflected by the coffee in your hand
My eyes are caught in your gaze all over again

We were love drunk, waiting on a miracle
Trying to find ourselves in the winter snow
So alone in love like the world had disappeared
Oh, I won't be silent and I won't let go
I will hold on tighter 'til the afterglow
And we'll burn so bright 'til the darkness softly clears

Oh, I will hold on to the afterglow
Oh, I will hold on to the afterglow

The weather outside's changing
The leaves are buried under six inches of white
The radio is playing, Iron & Wine
This is a new dimension
This is a level where we're losing track of time
I'm holding nothing against it, except you and I

We were love drunk, waiting on a miracle
Trying to find ourselves in the winter snow
So alone in love like the world had disappeared
Oh, I won't be silent and I won't let go
I will hold on tighter 'til the afterglow
And we'll burn so bright 'til the darkness softly clears

Oh, I will hold on to the afterglow
Oh, I will hold on to the afterglow
Oh, I will hold on to the afterglow

"thank you everyone" Colson said and we left the stage. "i will never get tired of singing that song" i said. "me neither" he said smiling at me. "i'm tired baby" i said. "i know, let's get back to the hotel and we can take a nap" he said and i nodded. we got to the car and i pulled myself up from the chair and into the car. Colson grabbed my wheel chair and put it in the truck of the car and then got in. he turned on the radio and then we heard something. "right so let's move onto this new artist. her name is Phoenix Merton. she's 24 and she's in a wheelchair. do we know what happened to her to put her in one?" the person said. "wrong my babygirl is 25" Colson said smiling. "she was in a car accident, she lost control of her car and actually ended up hitting her now boyfriend Machine Gun Kelly, it partially severed her spinal cord and they preformed a surgery to save her. the surgery went well but something happened causing her to almost completely sever it and now she's back in the wheelchair." the other person on the radio said. "she's a photographer for Diablo Dreams Photography and shes also a musician with MGK. their song Afterglow has been number one for three months across all charts." "she's definitely changing up his music style that's for sure. and i'm kinda living for it. but i don't know how it's gonna work given his wild boy reputation" i sighed when i heard that. i knew it was gonna be different i just was hoping it wouldn't hurt his rep in the long run. "babe you know i don't care about my rep. if i did i wouldn't have made that album" he said putting his hand on my thigh. "i know. i just wish it wasn't gonna mess up your rep since that's what got you to where you are" i said. "i know baby. it's okay though. i'm happy and that's all that matters with this shit" he said and i smiled.
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we got back to LA a week ago and i feel like shit. i have a massive headache and i keep throwing up. thank god for bedside trash cans. "hey Phoenix did you and Colson do anything while out there for SNL?" Rook asked. "yea, what- oh shit" i said. "here" he said handing me a test. i pulled myself out of bed and into my wheelchair. i wheeled myself to the bathroom and locked the door. i took the test and waited. ten minutes later i looked at the test and saw two blue lines. "you've got to be fucking kidding me" i mumbled. "Rook!!!" i yelled. i heard the bedroom door open and then a knock on the bathroom door. i unlocked it and he walked in. i handed home the test and he looked at it. "sweet fucking god" he mumbled. "what's he gonna say Rook? he's already got Cas" i said. "i'm not sure Phoenix. i'm really not." he said. "hide this. don't let him find it till you're ready to tell him" he said and i nodded. he left the bathroom and room and i went back to the bed. i hid the test inside my bed side drawer and laid down. "fuck" i said.