Collision

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*six months later"

it's been six months since i was last in Cleveland. Colson never tried to contact me or the girls and it honestly hurt me so much. the guys and i kept in contact and we called every so often to talk about life. apparently Colson has been on some hard drugs again and no one can get him to stop. i feel like hell for leaving but he did technically tell me to leave so i did. i wasn't gonna put myself or the girls through that shit any longer. i have noticed that he hasn't released any new music since we left but oh well. last i heard from the guys was about a month ago but i wasn't tripping over it. they all had lives and they had to keep Colsons ass from killing himself. "Phoenix!!!" Ashley yelled. "yes!!!" i yelled back. "get down here now!!" she yelled. oh fuck. i ran down to the living room where she was and i saw youtube open on the tv. "what?" i asked out of breath. "look" she said pointing. it was a song Colson released. "holy shit" i mumbled. it was titled 'please forgive me'. "click it" i said and she did.

Colson

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on
You're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I want to love you longer
Do you still turn the fire on?
So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it good
So if I love you, a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still getting closer baby
Can't get closer enough
Still holding on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you yeah
I remember the nights, you know I still do
So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
The one thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm praying
That's why I'm saying,
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Babe believe it, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, if I can't stop loving you
No, believe me, I don't know what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
I can't stop, loving you

by the time it ended i was in tears. my phone dinged and i picked it up and saw it was from Colson.
"hey Phoenix, i'm not sure how i should go about this but you were right. you were so fucking right and i'm so sorry. you all needed me and i was to selfish to see that. i understand why you left and why you took the girls with you. i love you always pretty girl"
how many times can a girl cry in five minutes? "girl he knows he fucked up. tell him you'll be on a plane in two days with the girls" Ash said. "okay" i replied to the text then sent another one saying we'd be on a plane in two days. god this is gonna be weird.
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"flight 25a to Cleveland Ohio is now boarding" the voice in the loud speakers said. "let's go mom" Cassie said. i laughed and we got on the plane. "first class" the flight attendant said as she guided us back to that section of the plane. we got back and got in out seats. "have a nice flight Mrs Baker" the lady said. "thank you miss" i said with a smile and she nodded. "i cant wait to see dad" Cassie said smiling. me and you both kiddo. Katana is a dream to fly with. she doesn't fuss or anything like that which is amazing.
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four and a half hours later we were in Cleveland. we just got off the plane and we were trying to find our baggage claim. "mom it's this one" Cas said pointing. "good eye baby" i said and she smiled. we got our bags and we started walked towards to entrance/exit of the air port. i was looking around for Slim since he said he was gonna come get us but instead i made eye contact with those beautiful blue eyes. i smile and he did too. "mom can i run?" Cas asked gesturing to Colson. i nodded my head yes and she took off like a bat outta hell. she jumped up into his arms and he grabbed onto her holding her like it was the end of the world. i couldn't exactly run with a baby and i bag so i walked a little faster than normal over to him. he grabbed me with one arm and held onto me, Cas and Katana. "my beautiful girls" he said. "i love you so so much. i'm so sorry. to all three of you" he said slightly crying. "we're here now. and you're better now. let's just let this be a good run. no more arguing no more running away. none of it. just me, you, music, and the girls." i said. "sounds just fine to me" he said.