Collision

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i am now seven months pregnant and jesus let me tell you. i'm moody as shit, my cravings are weird as hell, and i'm always tired. "hey preggo" Rook said. "i will punch you" i said staring at him. "okay jeez" he said putting his hands up in defense. "i'm sorry i'm just very irritated" i said. "i know i know it's fine" he said and gave me a hug. Colson was out with Slim, Pete and Cassie right now. Dub was god knows where. so it's just me and Rook at the house right now. "how many more months?" Rook asked. "two" i replied. i was sitting on the couch while Rook was on the floor playing video games. "yikes" he said. i decided to get on my phone and just start scrolling through instagram. i saw a lot of the stuff fans posted i just didn't interact with it a lot because it just starts a surge of people even more than the daily that tag me in stuff. "mom we are home" Cassie said walking into the house. "in here Cas" i said. i heard her run into the living room and she sat down next to me. "how's the baby?" she asked. "good" i said smiling. "so i wanna do something for dad but i need your help" she said whispering. "okay what is it?" i asked whispering back. "i want to redo his song glass house" she said. see Cassie is now 11 so i'm not surprised she would want to do something like that for Colson. "okay so when do you wanna do this?" i asked her. "as soon as we can" she said. "okay well let's get Slim and Rook to take him out for a few hours and we can do it" i said. she smiled and nodded. "hey Rook grab Slim and get Colson out of the house for like four hours. i'm sure you just heard our conversation so do it please. i'll give you five bucks" i said. "five bucks deal. pay me when we get back" he said jumping up and turning off the xbox. i laughed and he ran out. "babe i'm going out" Colson said. "okay i love you" i said back. "i love you too" he said and then i heard the door close. "let's go" i said getting up. Cassie and i walked to the studio room and started working.
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it's been three and a half hours and we finally got it all together. i heard the front door open so we ran out of the room with the usb the song was on. "dad i want to show you guys something" Cassie said. "okay what's up?" he asked. "sit" she said pointing to the couch. the did as told and she put the usb into the tv and it popped up with the recording picture and then she walked over and hit play on the remote. "okay Phoenix helped me because i asked her to so yea" she said sitting down.

(Cassie Phoenix)

All alone in the glass house
Lay awake 'til the sun's out
Thank the sky when you come down
Empty in the driveway
Caffeine for the heartache
Never wanna have it my way
Yeah, you fuck up and lose control
You burnt so many bridges, had nowhere to go
Bitches got these motives like Anna Nicole
You're smoking cigarettes alone until it burn a hole
In your lungs, in your soul, in your denim coat
Same place you keep that knife if you slit your throat
This shit ugly, you was just with Nipsey, now he ghost
They even got your homie Pete out here, like, fuck the jokes
Damn
All alone in the glass house (Just keep it going)
Lay awake 'til the sun's out
Thank the sky when you come down
(Sometimes I just wanna fucking scream or run away, I don't know)
Ayy, your life's been hard since 17
You've been through hell, you think you're somewhere in-between
Caught in purgatory, You can paint the scene
Everything turned to a nightmare from a dream
Look, you wish Lil Peep and you had spoke but you can't get that back
Just came from Pittsburgh, damn, you miss my homie Mac
Yeah, last time you got off the stage you looked Chester in the face
But now he gone, and ain't no going back, uh
Why don't you throw me in the damn flame?
Bury me in gold chains
Throw me in the damn flame
(I'm waiting on the rain to come and wash it all away)
Why don't you throw me in the damn flame?
Bury me in gold chains
Throw me in the damn flame
Lately you've been sick of living and
Nobody knows how you're really feeling
You always hated a smile, but a keyboard is killing you, hidden inside
You didn't sign up to be the hero but you don't want to wind up a villain
You put me to bed then attempted to kill yourself in the kitchen
Yeah, you should've screamed, but nobody listened
So you passed out with the blood dripping
In this glass house, feeling like a prison
You and death keep tongue-kissing
You just fell out with your lil' bro, the life getting to you
The drink getting to you, the drugs getting to you
It's highway to hell and everybody knew it
The fuck were you doing
You're feeling like
Why don't you throw me in the damn flame?
Bury me in gold chains
Throw me in the damn flame
(I'm waiting on the rain to come and wash it all away)
Why don't you throw me in the damn flame?
Bury me in gold chains
Throw me in the damn flame
All alone in the glass house
Lay awake 'til the sun's out
Thank the sky when you come down
Empty in the driveway
Caffeine for the heartache
Never wanna have it my way

i looked over and saw Colson crying. "come here baby" he said opening his arms for Cassie. this little girl insisted that i did the part that Naomi did. and just so i didn't have to hear about it till the day i die i did it. "Phoenix you too" he said and i walked over well waddled my pregnant ass over to him. he wrapped his arms around me and Cassie and we all just stayed there. it was nice. to have a place to call home. Colson and Cassie were my home. Rook, Slim and Dub were too but not the same way. and for the first time i knew i was truly happy.