What Really Happens In High School (Heavy Editing)

What really happens in high school

It's as if i cant move. Like i'm paralyzed. It's as if everyone goes on with their life around me while i just stay in my room staring at the ceiling. Steve or my mother haven't bothered to see me.

Shane has tried calling and so has Aria. But that's it. I broke my phone because all that comes through the lines bring pain to my life. I haven't bothered to make it to school. I'll have to go eventually. Face reality.

I listen to the patter of the rain against my window sill. I stair out at the cold night, feeling alone as ever. I breathe on the window seeing it fog up and smile to myself.

"You have to face it one day Brookelle. Face that your life isn't normal." I say to myself out loud.

I chuckle and shake my head. I swear i'm going crazy.

My house phone begins to ring i slowly go to answer it.

Should i answer it? What if its Shane or Aria?

Have to face it.

"Hello?" my voice shakey

"Brookelle! I've been trying to reach you! What were you doing at Ivans?" Shane worried voice echos through my mind.

I take a deep shakey breath and say "No. The real question is what the bloody hell were you there Shane! You hate fighting! Dont you remember Robert?! And how much you hated how the fighting was ruining my life?! Then when i'm held prisoner at my own BROTHERS club i see the only guy i love and trust sitting there with all his fighters!"

The line is silent and i realize there are tears streaming down my face.

I hear him whisper "I......I went there to protect you Brooke. I knew people were after you and i wanted to be strong enough to be there and help you when you needed it. I didnt know...... i didnt know that the guy who offered to teach me how to fight was after you and is your brother!"

I  wipe away my tears and he says " I'll quit. You know how much i love you Brooke and i can't lose you."

I shake my head even though he cant see me "You can't just go and quit Shane. Your bounded to that club and if you do....... Ivan will come after you."

I hear pain in his voice when he says slowly " Then... what will happen to us?"

My insides feel like their smashing together and crumpling inside as i whisper "I dont know. If we're seen together either me or you will be punished."

"Brookelle, I love you. We'll make it work. I can't lose you."

I'm sobbing and shaking "I love you too Shane. But i can't have you get hurt." I hang up the phone and curl into a ball on my bed.

My heart is dying and withring inside as i cry and feel pain for everything that has happened.