I looked myself up and down, this is horrible. I was standing naked in front of my full length mirror about to shower, but as always I can't ever get in the shower like a normal person. No, I had to stand there and criticize every ounce of my body. I pinched my sides, poked my stomach, and rubbed my thighs. I can't believe how much weight I've gained, this is going to be so hard to work off. I felt a wiggle, no it's not your fault. Well, it kind of is, you're growing rapidly inside me. Today we find out what you are, and make sure you're okay from the burns from the other day. I love you so much, baby. I thought to myself, even though I will be getting an amazing baby, I get a horrible, fat, and flabby body left behind. while I was skimming my body I saw my scars on my wrists, hips, and thighs, I ran my fingers over them slowly. some white, some purple, some a little pink, all still very visible, then I saw our tattoo. it read 'together forever' in his handwriting, I don't regret that anymore like i did about a year ago. The room started to spin, memories flooded back. I collapsed to the cold bathroom floor as I started to remember last year and all the pain I was in. my breathing got shallow, I started to hyperventilate, my hands were shaking as I crossed them trying to cradle my shaking body.
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"Listen it's not what it looks like!" Ethan screamed as me as I collapsed to his bedroom floor. He stormed over to his dresser and slammed his fist onto the hard, wooden top. I shuttered at the loud cracking sound,
"Then what is it Ethan? Hum? I saw her name on your phone! You two have a thing, you can't deny it," I screamed at him, not caring who in the world hears me. Everybody needs to know, Ethan is a cheater.
"You don't know what you are talking about, i would never cheat on you. especially with her, it's her!" he choked up, "I need you Marie, you can't leave me." he teared up,
"Look me in the eye Ethan, look at me and tell me straight up you didn't cheat on me." he couldn't do it, he looked at the ground and stroked the back of his neck. He did, he cheated. I knew it, "Exactly, you can't. Don't call me Ethan Jonah, don't talk to me," I whispered as I walked past him,
"You know what, go! Just go, leave! I don't need you, just go and slash your wrists like you always do when your upset!" I couldn't breathe, my heart stopped, what did he just say? "Marie, you know I didn't mean it like that. I love you so much, please don't hurt yourself," he cried out reaching for my wrist,
"Do not touch me. Do not, back away and let me leave." I stormed out of his room and ran home.
When I got home I grabbed my razor, blood gushing from my wrist.
I can't breathe, the hyperventilating got worse, I need to take this pain away but I can't go back to that. Can I? I searched through my drawers, shaking hands, I finally found my razors. It took me forever to break the little blade out, I ended up cutting my fingers in the process. The shiny piece of heaven fell onto my floor, the room was silent. I picked it up and looked at my porcelain wrist, holding the blade to it, about to slowly slide it across. I took a deep breath, as I let it out I was going to do it. Waste those months of being clean, I heard the front door swing open then slam shut.
"Baby, I'm home from work, are you ready for the doctor to find out what our seeeeeeeex of the baby is," he drug out the the 'e' in the word sex, I was still on the bathroom floor.
"Oh, erhm, yes, let me just shower up really fast and I'll be ready to go. I just went shopping today so there is a ton of food in the fridge." I ran the water, turned on my music, and hid my bade before tiptoeing in the shower.
When I was drying off A-Team by Ed Sheeran began to play through out the bathroom, and they say, she's in the class a-team, stuck in her daydream. Been this way since 18 but lately,
"Her face seems slowly sinking, wasting, crumbling like pastries." I heard Ethan begin to sing as he came over to me and wrapped his hands around my waist. He pulled me in and whispered the rest of the lyrics to me, after the song finished playing he kissed me. I'll be, our song came on next. He pulled up my arm to slow dance with him, and he noticed I couldn't stop staring at my wrists,
"Baby, stop," he whispered,
"I can't, its on my mind lately." I trailed off. He let go of me and let my hands fall to my side. I wrapped my scared up wrists around my belly, please, please never leave me. Take me for the way I am, don't leave me. "Marie, whats wrong?" Ethan whispered and after that I dropped to the floor, Ethan gasped and fell to my side. "Marie, come here, baby," he pulled me into his arms, I started to cry and shake again. "Shh, Shh baby, it's okay," he comforted me,
"How am I supposed to be a good mum when I can't even take care of myself?" I cried,
"Are you kidding me? You're going to be the best mum I know!"
"You mean it?"
"Of course baby. Now, lets get you together, then we can make our way to the doctors to see our baby," after he finished talking, he pulled me in for a quick kiss.
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Together Forever.
Teen Fiction"Together Forever," he breathed out slowly as he intertwined our fingers. "Don't make any promises you can't keep, babe." I reply. He grabs me by my waist and pulls me into his embrace, "I promise you, I will love you everyday of forever." His voi...
