Watching You

37|Nightmare

Harry's pov

"Fuck me!" I grunted slamming my razor down on the table

I groaned and laid back on the sofa I squeezed my eyes shut

"OH FUCK YEAH!" I winced as Liam yelled

I sniffed hard rubbing my hand up my nose starting from my finger over my wrist down my arm

I heard laughing "You're bleeding"  Natasha whispered into my ear

I opened my eyes lolling my head to the side to see my hand there was blood I threw myself up from the sofa rubbing my palm up my nose

I walked into the bathroom and looked into the mirror my eyes kept rolling back and twitching I leaned closer to the mirror to see better I put my hand on it squinting I could taste my blood as it ran into my mouth I licked it up

"HAZ I GOT THE LINES READY!" Natasha screamed

I turned toward the door the movement made my head spin "Dammit" I crashed into the door

My phone rang it was my dad I knew the ringtone I had to answer or that would be my fucking ass

I pulled it out and answered

"...Overdose..."

I jolted up out of my sleep I screamed and clutching my sheets

I felt tears run down my face I quickly wiped them away

"Harry?" I looked toward my door I saw Alexis in the dim light of the hall

"Get out" I covered my face "GET OUT!" I growled

She quickly closed the door leaving me in darkness again

I rubbed my face again I grabbed my phone quickly using the light to check my hands for blood

I was clean

Of course I was

I haven't done drugs in years and I've never had nosebleeds without the use of drugs

I sighed heavily

My door opened again I looked up

It was Alexis but this time she was holding something

"What are you doing?" I asked

"Well I wanted to bring you milk and cookies I think that's what a good mom would do when you have a nightmare ya know?, but like you didn't have any cookies so I brought some Twix I had in my room and your milk smelled kinda off so I have apple juice and water" she rambled softly

I shook my head "what?"

She walked over holding the tray I turned on the lamp next to me she sat by my legs "apple juice or water?" She whispered

I leaned over putting an elbow on my knee my forehead to my palm I was close enough to her that I could feel her body heat "I'm sorry I yelled at you" I whispered

"It's okay"

I grabbed her arm ,since I was right by her shoulder, rubbing my thumb against her skin "it's not"

She put a hand over mine "I have those kinds of dreams too, I understand Harry"

I closed my eyes "how often?"