HOW DO YOU RESIST
CRUMBLING YOURSELF INTO
NOTHING WHEN YOU'RE
A CATERPILLAR TYPE OF
PERSON? WEREN'T YOU
DESIGNED TO WRAP YOURSELF
UP AND DISSOLVE INTO NOTHING?
.
i ask them
after i tell this story
if we can take the train
as far as we can.
i wipe my face
as they nod.
we
actually
aren't that
far from the station.
i tell them i'll cover
the tickets
and they nod again
probably not sure
what to say.
"now you know why
i keep my
happy things locked away."
i say.
we turn around
another cigarette
in my mouth.
i'll need to get more.
"but it wasn't happy,
it was sad."
zayn says.
"i know. but she
was the happiness
that you asked for.
i was simply saying
that everything happy gets
taken away from me.
so i don't want to say
them out loud."
they nod like they understand
but liam is easily read
like a
book
cover.
he is confused.
i
am
tired.
i swallow hard
as the silence envelops
us.
"the attic."
i say simply
we are still walking
and they are surprised
i can tell.
they were startled
when i said it.
"what?"
zayn asks and liam
says nothing
but look curious.
they
are
beautiful.
they
are
beautiful.
"i was happy there."
i whisper.
"i could lock them out
there."
i say.
"i could write everything down
and leave it in there because my
parents didn't know where i kept the
key."
h i d i n g p l a c e.
"it was somewhere i could run
when the bruises were too dark
or the silence was beckoning."
i close my eyes and stop
smiling.
they stop a few steps ahead.
a l o n e.
"it's where i learned to love
being
c o m p a n i o n l e s s."
i meet their eyes.
brown.
but completely different.
bark and chocolate.
"before i met liam
i barely muttered a sentence
to anyone
before i came to that god
foresaken town. other than
'fuck me.'
and now m'glad that you both
are
in
my
life."
their smiles
are enough.
we
walk.
we
walk.
YOU ARE READING
HURRICANE
Fanfiction[ larry; completed ] he was just a hurricane of self destruction, troubled by the ghosts of his past, devoid of the color that he once possessed. yet he lives on, walking with the universe on his shoulders...