HE WAS THREE WHEN
HE BECAME A MIXED
DRINK OF ONE PART
LEFT ALONE AND
TWO PARTS
TRAGEDY.
.
i try not to think of
my childhood,
but there's always
part of me that craves
sadness for myself.
so my mind almost
always wanders there.
i think of how it felt
to be slapped across
the face at five years old
because i had wet the bed
but it
had only been because
i was scared to
leave my room.
i think about my mother
telling me how
i wasn't good enough,
and how i shouldn't
eat as much.
i was twelve,
when she began starving me.
i would complain
every once in a while,
and she simply looked at
me with cold, green marble
for eyes,
and told me
that beauty was pain.
my thoughts were warped
to only count calories
and swallow handfuls of pills
and run as much as i could.
i was ruined.
my mother ruined me.
i remember the times
when she told
me that i should've
been a girl.
she called me haley
sometimes.
i would never answer
her though.
she was sick.
i was too.
but i kind of loved it.
i feel droplets of rain begin
to hit my hair,
i keep walking regardless,
but i don't see the point
in holding up my thumb
anymore.
but i do anyway,
because i
have this feeling.
the rain gets harder.
i put up my hood.
my skin runs cold
down to my bones.
my arm begins to waver.
i keep walking.
but i like the feeling of it.
the cold rain,
it cleanses you.
i smile softly as i keep walking,
forcing my arm to keep up.
what would it be like,
i wonder.
to jump out in front of the car
that is fast approaching?
i keep walking.
i hear the squeal of brakes.
i turn to the side.
there is a car beside me.
i stop walking.
the window rolls down,
the cold rain hits my face.
the woman has a kind smile,
and tells me to get in the car.
i smile back. and nod.
i get in.
we drive.
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HURRICANE
Hayran Kurgu[ larry; completed ] he was just a hurricane of self destruction, troubled by the ghosts of his past, devoid of the color that he once possessed. yet he lives on, walking with the universe on his shoulders...