AND I USE YOU AS
A WARNING SIGN
THAT IF YOU TALK ENOUGH
SENSE THEN
YOU'LL LOSE YOUR MIND.
.
i don't know how much
i have slept
all i know is
i
am
tired.
i don't check to see if
anyone is beside me
the blinds are shut
and i don't bother to think about
what time of day
it
is.
liam is the second best
friend i had ever
HAD.
why is he against me now?
i turn on the shower
and step in
after i shed my clothes.
i
feel
so
numb.
swallow the pills
swallow the pills
pretty haley
swallow the pills.
i want to scream
but i let the scalding water burn
the insecurity off of my skin.
(it
does
not
work)
i find myself thinking of louis.
WHAT
THE
FUCK
IS
WRONG
i remember seeing
him in that truck
and my first thought
was
he shouldn't be alone.
and i feel myself curling inward.
i am diseased with feelings
that i shouldn't have.
this part of my journey was unplanned
and i made myself
V U L N E R A B L E.
worse things have happened,
but why does this make my
skin crawl and my legs shake?
why is max always on my mind now,
it's as if my mind has become a shrine to her
and my emotions pour out of me
like water from a fountain.
love is poison
yet
love is so
k i n d.
i slide down the shower wall into the tub.
n
u
m
b.
he is it.
he is the
d e a t h
i have been begging for
y e t
i do not wish to meet.
at least,
not now.
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HURRICANE
Fanfic[ larry; completed ] he was just a hurricane of self destruction, troubled by the ghosts of his past, devoid of the color that he once possessed. yet he lives on, walking with the universe on his shoulders...
