Chances are, you probably know the saying, 'The calm before the storm.'
How right before something bad happens, something traumatic, something devastating—before all hell breaks loose, there's a calm. A sense of happiness and a true certainty, right before it all turns into unhappiness and uncertainty.
For most of your life, specifically rooting from younger years, you really hadn't felt that calm before.
It was always the storm. No peaceful calm.
Just storm, after storm, after storm.
And then you joined the BAU, and something so small: a new town with a new job, changed so much.
You had worried it would just be another storm, that it couldn't be good. Because despite being excited about this great opportunity, you were simultaneously terrified.
And then again, at the exact same time, you were also settling with the fact that maybe you weren't meant to feel calm, content, or particularly happy.
But then you met the team, began to know them better, and immediately felt this welcomeness they brought. And it was something you hadn't really felt in a long, long time. Long enough for you not to truly remember what it's like.
You might not have wholeheartedly even admitted it before, but it genuinely shocked you. That the people you had just met, these random individuals, were bringing you that long-awaited joy.
So now you're thinking, maybe, in your life, that saying is the opposite. The reversed version.
That after making it through so many storms, you finally are seeing the calm. The calm after the storm.
Because right now, even with your stupid uncertainties with your relationship with Spencer, your life is pretty fucking good. Maybe Spencer isn't everything you wish he could be to you, and maybe he'll never be — which (if you admit it) breaks your heart a little bit. But at least you have him in your life. At least he's a part of it, and at least your a part of his.
The friendship with him alone, even seeing him every day at work; being able to hear his rambles and spend — both kinds of — time with him is enough for right now.
Because the past you would be so ecstatic to know she finally has something, many 'somethings' in her life that make that sadness diminish. That makes that emptiness filled.
Hell, she would even be ecstatic to know you don't feel anxious at work.
So right now, you're grateful for what your life, what the universe, has finally given you. Because every single aspect that comes with Spencer and the 'relationship' you two have, do give your life something other than sadness. And in addition, the family-like bond you've gained from the entire team makes you realize that maybe that season of your life has passed. That storm-filled season.
It looks like it finally is gone.
. . .
The loud ringing of your phone in the nighttime void jolts you out of sleep.
For a split second, you're confused as to why you were getting a call at, well, 2:04 am...
And then you quickly remember that you work at the BAU.
"Y/L/N, we have a case."
"Yeah," you say in your most composed manner, despite being woken out of a deep sleep, "Alright. I'll be there in 40 minutes."
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Take Over Me
FanfictionY/N Y/L/N is someone who has never felt true welcomeness. She's been unwelcome since she was a child, even in her own family. When she moves to Virginia and starts her new job with the BAU, she starts to learn what being welcome is really like. Espe...
