Love Me Again

Chapter 20 - Big Time State

I zipped my last bag, when there was a light knock on the bedroom door. It opened to reveal Logan, and I took a seat on my bed.

"Are you sure you can't stay?" He asked, taking a seat next to me.

"I just want life to go back to how it was before Jack." I answered, looking down at my hands.

"But wasn't your life complicated before him too?"

"I wasn't scared all the time though."

"You don't need to be scared. He's locked up for a long time." He turned to face me, taking my hands in his own.

"But what about when he gets out? I need to be far away. A place where he won't know where I am." I said and he sighed.

"Okay." He said, nodding. "Let's go then." He said, so I grabbed my suitcases while he grabbed his crutches.

"Let's go." I copied him, heading out of the room, and towards the stairs.

"You were suppose to talk her out of leaving." James said, standing up while I looked back at Logan.

"I'm not forcing her to stay." He replied, and James sighed.

"It's getting her to realize why she wants to stay here, not forcing her to stay. There's a difference." James said, and I rolled my eyes.

"I'm standing right here you know." I said, walking down the stairs with Logan trailing  behind me.

"We know." They replied, and I set my suitcases at the bottom of the stairs before giving James a hug.

"I don't like the idea of you being by yourself." James said, hugging me tightly.

"You never have." I said, slowly pulling away from the hug.

"We're all going to miss you." Kendall said, pulling me into a hug next.

"You'll have to come back soon." Carlos said as he gave me a hug.

"Are you guys not coming to the airport?" I asked and they shook their heads.

"It'll be too hard of a goodbye." James said, pulling me into another hug.

"You guys are big babies." I said, although I knew if they went to the airport I'd have a hard time leaving.

"We'll always be here whenever you need us. Plus expect my usual FaceTime call every night." James said, and I laughed.

"You'll always be my big brother, James." I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"Good." He grabbed one of my bags before we headed outside and towards Logan's car. We put the bags in the trunk, before I turned towards the guys.

"I'm going to miss you all." I said, before they all pulled me in for a group hug, other than Logan who stood by his car watching us.

"We'll miss you a lot more." Kendall said, before I got out of the group hug.

"I'll see you guys again. This isn't goodbye forever." I said, and they nodded.

"We know." They replied, before I head towards the passenger side of the car.

"Bye guys." I said, waving. They waved back and they kept waving until I couldn't see them in the rear view mirror in the anymore.

"Are you sure you have to leave?" Logan asked, looking from the rear view mirror to the road.

"Yeah, Logan." I said, leaning my head on the window.

"But-"

"Please don't try getting me to stay, I'll just feel guiltier." I said and he nodded before the car went silent. I turned the music up, and it was a Big Time Rush song, Worldwide. Logan wrote the song for me when they went on tour for the first time, and I felt tears brim my eyes as I listened to the words.