Counting Stars (Itachi x fem!reader)

-Monster or God?-

(My Ordinary Life - The Living Tombstone)

~If love is just a word then why does it hurt so much when you realize it isn't here? - Gaara~

Backstory Chapter

The leader of my village called me into his office. "Come in." I didn't even knock yet. My chakra was the only thing he needed to know that I was outside. Standing there, while taking a deep breath. His voice took me off guard. It was deep, cold. As if he sealed away his own emotions. Not even I could tell what he felt.

I pulled myself together. Afterwards opening the door. There sat a older man with blue eyes. His hair were already white. He looked like he could die any day. I bended down out of respect. "You wanted to speak me?" I spoke. My voice was emotionless too. Still. He knew about me being scared. Usually, my leader would request me when I had to be punished. "Yes, sit down." He demanded, not bothering to look at me.

"I'm impressed. You developed quite nicely. You pushed through the training, the punishments, and the experiments. And now... Now you're living up to your potential." He praised me. His praises did not seem real. The man in front of me wasn't satasfied. I could tell. "But I want you to be more than the potential you have right now. These experiments revealed something quite... Interesting." Cofusion. What was he talking about?

He leaned slightly forward. This time there was a emotion. Happiness? Excitment? "You'll be a god soon, dear." Yes. He was happy. Of course he was. This meant he could use me as a weapon against his worse enemies. "A god." I repeated. Should I be happy too? He hummed, returning to his original position. "We'll take it slow. You can leave. Don't forget about the curfew. We don't want to trap you in a genjutsu again."

From one to the other moment I was alone. Now being on a nearby training field. I wondered whether I should train or rest. Being alone felt weird. Being able to make my own decision was even weirder. This feeling didn't stay for long. It was replaced by a external feeling. There was something sharp near my throat.

A boy. A boy with a katana, threatening me. His hair black, his eyes red. He was slightly taller than me. His short hair covered his forehead and ears, it looked so soft, yet so messy. He wore black eyeliner, the tip being as sharp as his katana. The eyeliner made his red eyes even prettier. This boy was somehow attractive. If he wouldn't be holding a katana into my direction, I would have been happy to see him.

My expression didn't change one bit. I was calm, admiring the view in front of me. His expression turned into a surprised one as soon as my red eyes met his. We had something in common.  "I didn't expect them to let the monster of the L/n clan wander off on her own." He said. The katana didn't point at me anymore. 

There was silence. I was too focused on figuring him out. There was red chakra. He had red chakra. We had another thing in common. "A fellow L/n?" I asked out loud.  "Ahh, yes! But I prefer Uchiha Hotoke, rather than L/n Hotoke." He used the oppurtunity to introduce himself.  "To be honest, I didn't think someone like you would be the monster."

"Uchiha.." I whispered to myself, completly ignoring his other statment. "Hey! Don't make me feel ignored!" Hotoke complained. I prefered his company more when he aimed to injure me. "Why are you talking to me?" I didn't mean to appear as rude. That was a lie. "I want some friends around here. You seem lonely." That was new. What was this? My stomach... I couldn't even describe it.

"Okay... I guess." I mumbled as I avoided his eyes. "You're cute." Hotoke spoke, a bit too confident. My jaw dropped. "I'm 12, sir." The boy laughed at me. "Relax. I'm 13," He smiled, looking down at me. "Ma'am." 

After telling him my name, we bought a box of mochis. Then we sat down underneath a oak tree. Hotoke threw the mochis into the there, just to catch them with his mouth afterwards. I was watching him, nibbling on the mochi in my hand. How could he feel so comfortable around someone he barely knew? How was he even able to walk up to me and ask if we could be friends? Who was this guy? 

He noticed me staring at him. Hotoke made eye contact with me, but I didn't even notice it. The corners of his mouth raised. "Who gave you the name monster?" Unlike me, he said what he thought. I shrugged. "What do I know? I think I'll be getting a new one though." He looked at me, waiting for me to elaborate. "They say I'll become a god." 

Instead of staring at him, my eyes were looking at the ground. "Woah! So you're going to be the next god of the L/n's?" He was amazed, while I chuckled. Next?  "That's a dumb name." I said, standing up. I had to go back. "Come on!" He yelled, being a bit offended. "Don't worry. I like dumb things." I spoke. My legs started to walk. "See you around, Toke." He was surprised by the nickname. "Bye bye! Little Y/n."