Counting Stars (Itachi x fem!reader)

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A/n: Trigger warning, there'll be a mentioning of rape at the end. I'll drop another tw as soon as we come to the part, so you know when to skip!

(Lovesong / The Lovecats by The Cure)

~Self-sacrifice... A nameless shinobi who protects peace within its shadow. That is a true shinobi. - Uchiha Itachi~

A knock. It appeared out of nowhere. You focused on getting ready for the date, so the sudden sound took you off guard. After taking a deep breath, you went to open the door. There he stood. The man, Uchiha Itachi, who would be your date for today. A long awaited date to say the least.

The basic Akatsuki cloak covered his body from showing his shape. His looks were no different from his usual. Your expression showed how you questioned his seriousness. "He-" He cut himself off, frowning as soon as he met your eyes. "You are wearing... The cloak?"

His eyes went down to his clothes, then up to you again. "Yes. I look good." Itachi spoke. His confidence surprised you. You didn't break the eye contact nor the silence. These arms, attached to your body, crossed in front of your body. "I invested my energy into something else than my looks."

You dropped this expression of yours. "Interesting." Walking past him, you hide something behind your back. Itachi noticed that, waiting for you to explain. "Let's strengthen our trust, shall we?" A blindfold layed in your hands. There was a smile on your face.

You have been urging to try something like this. This book, you once read, talked about the trust between two people being quite important in relationships. A "game" like this could help with building trust between humans. Letting someone guide you, while being unable to see, would prove something. It would prove that you could trust him. You were aware about how unrealistic and stupid this was, but you also knew that there was at least a bit of truth behind it.

"Y/n-" You stopped him from talking with one simple word. "Please!" Itachi thought that this was stupid. He had trust issues, but doing something like this wouldn't solve anything. Then again, why not just give it a try if that would make you happy? "Fine. Put it on me."

Your jaw dropped due to his words. "You didn't want to do this, because you believed to be the one, who had to wear it?" He already regretted his words. You wanted to wear the blindfold, not him. He should have known. "I thought you trusted me at least a little bit." Your eyes were glued to the ground, while Itachi put his hand on your shoulder. "I do trust you. A lot. Just not when it comes to you guiding me through a place with a lot of obstacles." You looked up, now looking at Itachi, who wore a somewhat teasing smile.

"Damn you." The blindfold layed now in Itachi's hands. He put it on you. Both of his hands were on your shoulders as he stood behind you. "Can we go or do you have another unpleasant surprise?" You tensed up, feeling the warmth of the Uchiha's breath on your neck. "We can go."

His hands didn't leave your body as he guided you. After observing him, you could tell that he walked slower. Making it seem as if he was being careful. Careful to not let you run into anything. But there was no need to worry, he had a set of eyes, which-

You stopped. "I don't trust you anymore. You come close to being blind." Not that you could see it, but Itachi smiled due to your words. You took a step to the side to get away from his touch. He took your arm, pulling you back, so you wouldn't bump into the wall and the torch. "Coward." The Uchiha insulted you. "Shut up." It was noticeable that you couldn't think about any other response. "Scardey cat." He kept going, soon enough realizing that you were genuinely worried about this. "Now now. My Sharingan is activated." He pushed you, so you would start walking again. "Besides, this will "strengthen our trust", right?" His words were met with silence as the two of you kept walking. He beat you with your own weapons.

You two came to an stop. Itachi freed you from the blindfold. In front of you, a blanket, underneath it, grass. On top of the blanket was food. He planned on having a picnic with you. This forced a smile out of you. Without saying a single word, you kissed his cheek. Afterwards, pulling him down to sit with you.

Itachi kept quiet, being busy with watching you eat. He catched himself in the act. Not wanting to come of as a creep, he started to eat too. "Why did you lie?" After processing your words, he chewed slower. Then he swallowed, carefully thinking about what words to choose next. "I do not wish to hurt you. Being in a relationship with me, means nothing but pain. Therefore staying away from you, seemed like the better option." The Uchiha's eyes weren't meeting yours even once. "My death is inevitable."

A frown stained your pretty face. "What?! You shouldn't-" Your yelling was interrupted by him poking your forehead. "I couldn't help it, but miss your short temper." He admitted, followed by a chuckle. This was a rare sight. One that took you off guard. You covered your face with your hands, not being to handle... Him. "Why can't you smile more often? I would like to get used to it." Itachi uncovered your face. He now held your hands in his. "It wouldn't be special if I showed it more often."

"I'll assume you want it to be special for me?" You smirked, leaning closer to him. His answer was a simple nod and him looking down to your lips. Suddenly, he seemed nervous. Another rare sight. "I'll also assume you want to be my boyfriend?" Once again, he nodded. You pulled your hands away. Right after, you brought some space between you two. "Give me a verbal answer, will you?"

He took a deep breath. His negative thoughts were making it hard to not reject you. In the end, he knew he wanted to be with you. "I would like that very much, Y/n." You smiled in satasfaction. "May I hug you?" Itachi returned a smile. "You may." Your arms were wrapped around his neck as his were wrapped around your waist. This position lasted for a good minute or two. You noticed how his breathing became more relaxing by every passing second. Another thing you noticed was him burrying his head into your neck. It seemed as if he didn't want this moment to past. Ever.

A/n: Trigger warning!

You couldn't grant him such wish. Pulling away, you took his hands to fidget with them. "It is fairly important to me that we'll take the physical part of a relationship slow." Saying this wasn't easy to say out loud. "As you wish. If you don't mind me asking-" Suddenly you let the sentence, which has been on your mind, out. "I had to watch as they raped my mother."

"They?"

"Yes."

He took this as a hint and didn't question you any further.