What Am I Doing Wrong?

Stay Strong And Keep Fighting...

Guys I have been going through some hectic stuff. . . things that I don’t usually share with anyone, not even my partner. I have been struggling on how to deal with people who want to see my fall instead of rise like the eagle that I am, jokes I just had to put that in. But on a serious note, people have been really mean to me. Like people I thought would have my back because they said so. I am the type of person who does not like letting other people down, and when people let me down it hits hard. I feel like you can hurt me in any other way, but words hurt me the most. especially when it comes from someone who said they would always be here for me. I think the most terrible feeling is thinking that you have someone to turn to, but instead that person stabs you in the back.

I know I am not the only one who feels as if no one understands me. . . I am so tired of getting hurt. And once again I find myself working my butt off so that I can get myself out of here. I need to get my own place, staying with family was not my first choice but my only choice. And unfortunately I have to deal with them treating me like a stranger. When I am never home because I am always working, they have a problem. When I am home because I am tired of working my butt off and I need a break, that too is a problem. When I make the money that I need to boast my business, that is a problem. When I ask them to help me out with cash to buy what I need, that is a problem. Guys, I too am facing challenges on a daily basis that I want to avoid.

What gets me through is a quote that I read that said that if getting what you want was easy then it isn't worth it. So I am trying to be patient and I am trusting God to guide me through all of my difficult times. Remember, we can't always get what we want in life. And if you feel like you keep messing up, just try again. My point is. . . Don't give up your dreams to please the people around you. I did that way too many times in my past. Just like how those people have dreams and a life of their own, so do you! Don't let anything get you down. Stay strong and keep fighting. . .