What Am I Doing Wrong?

I AM Done!!

So I was engaged before, to  man who I thought was everything I needed. Yes he had bad habits, but so did I. No one is perfect. We were dating for four months and I decided to move in with him and his parents. At first it was amazing, I loved waking up and seeing him in the morning and helping him get ready for work. His dad needed a caretaker because he was sick, and I was asked to help out until they found somebody. Of course I didn't mind. Sometimes I wish I didn't make that mistake. But then again, how else would we learn if we don't make mistakes. It went well for a couple of months until I discovered that his dad was addicted to gambling and his mom was a control freak. I'm not sure what exactly he was going through, but eventually as time went by we moved into his house. We started renovations immediately, keep in mind that this is the same house he shared with his ex wife of four months. He told me that the reason why they got divorced was because his ex was controlling and a phsycho. He told me about times when they had fights and things ended up getting broken in the house, that it was all her fault. I believed him, I mean which woman wouldn't believe her man. He told me about times that the fights got so bad that one of them ended up getting hurt.

I can't remember how I felt about him, but I know that I loved him very much. Until one day I started seeing right through him. He would make empty promises and I always forgave him for it and looked right past them. Until parents needed a place to stay and I suggested that they stay with us. And then his mom had him make loans at the bank because they needed money to pay for whatever. And so our dreams had to be put on hold. My dream of owning my own business and converting the one room in the house into a nail room. Slowly his mom got involved in the renovations of the house and my nail room idea was thrown out the window because whatever mom says goes. Him and I agreed on making the kitchen all white and mommy dearest wanted. it nude, Guess who won? We wanted to convert the backyard into a beautiful playground not just for us and the dogs, but also for when we have kids one day. But soon even that dream was destroyed by his fathers gambling addiction. The money we had then had to go for the dept they had because they used all their money on going to the casino 3 times a week.

Eventually him and I started fighting non stop. The last straw for me was when I finally got a job and he started complaining tat he had to drive me to work and accuse me of cheating on him. We had a huge fight one day and he swore in me in the street. I needed a break away from everyone and booked myself into a guest house and he decided to throw my clothes out of his house and into my mother yard. He disrespected my other who had nothing but respect for him. And a week later I took my stuff and moved to another province. He begged me to take him back but I was so done. Too many times I had the men in my life control me and treat me like I don't deserve to be happy. That was the day I decided that enough was enough. I changed my number and moved on with my life. . . Haven't looked back ever since. I am glad I made that move because I would have been stuck in a relationship that I wasn't happy in. With a guy who is addicted to weed and sleeping pills.

He threatened to kill himself if I left, but I was completely DONE! My life has never been better ever since I made the decision to make myself happy first. .