My mind is still thinking about what he had just done to me a few minutes ago. It feels like a dream come true, I always wanted this, this feeling I am feeling. I could feel his gaze upon me and my face automatically feels heated. “So I see you were deep in your thoughts.” He says and takes a sip of his water. I look at him and let out a laugh. “Yeah, sure whatever you say.” The waitress came and gave us the receipt. He kept his eyes on me. I finished the last bit of what I had.
“Now that you’re finished do you want to head back home?” “Yes.” I’m hoping that my mom isn’t home yet. He grabs his wallet and pulls out thirty dollars. I step out of the booth and head out the door. His hand randomly lands on my lower back which gives me chills. I love the way I am comfortable around him, yet intimidated by him. I look around at all the face that past me and feel like everyone’s eyes are on us. His hand leaves my back and I have an urge to cry right there. He opens the exit door wide so we both can go through. When I turn to glance at him, his phone starts ringing. “Pierce…Oh hi love.” I forgot he had a girl. How can I forget that? I feel like pulling every single strand of my hair and crying. Instead I bit my lip hard so I can hide the pain I feel. He hands me his keys and mouths. Go to the car. He also points directly at where the car was.
He turns left while I turn right. I turn back to him and see him smiling and leaning against a wall. I walk with my head and keep my feelings to myself. I open the car from the passenger seat and sit there in silence. I glanced at the Rear-view mirror and watch him laughing and finally hang up the phone. I turn to look forward. I feel so frustrated, mad, upset, furious at him and at myself. I kicked the glove compartment which hurt my toe, but I don’t care that what I get for falling for someone almost getting married and years older than me. I put my hands to my face and sigh really loud. That’s when the door opens and of course again he comes out of nowhere, Mr. David Pierce. He gets in the car and grabs the keys from my lap. He starts the car but doesn’t move from the parking spot. Instead he asks me,”Hey did I do something wrong?” He places his right hand on my knee. I love his touch against my skin, but I just want to smash his head against a pole for making me feel this way. A sigh leaves my mouth and I reply, “No… it’s just that…” I didn’t know what to say, I can’t just say, I really like you so stop talking to her and be with me forever. “I would have to go back to school in a couple of days, that’s it.” I am glad I came up with a really stupid excuse. I show him a smile so he would know I am not upset or angry. Minutes past and it is dead silence all I hear is the car A/C and the pattern I am breathing in.
My mind feels like it’s in space since I could only think of him and her. I watch the trees as we drive by. Nature is so beautiful in fact it’s the most beautiful thing I have ever laid eyes on, actually second. I am annoyed by the silence of the car. I’m going to break the silence right now. No wait now. If only my mind was a human I would have someone that understands and listens. The car stops on a red light and I could feel his eyes on me. “I know I did something, you haven’t said a word to me.” He says and traces his index finger along my hand. I adore that feeling he gives me. “Fine. I was upset that you took a phone call instead of hanging out with me.” I pulled my hand away and looked out the window. I felt the move again and him sigh. “I don’t want you ignoring me so why don’t we just skip home and go to like an umm...” He pauses then continues.” I know roller skating” When he said that my eyes go wide and I start laughing. “What do you have a better idea.” He says and chuckles mid-sentence. “No” I grin at him. He glances over at me and put his hand on my stomach. My laugh died out and in seconds later he start tickling me. I am so surprised he could drive with one hand. “Stop…plea…” I couldn’t finish my sentence since I was busy laughing. “When do you start school again?” He asked me out of the blue. I forgot about school and haven’t called my friends recently maybe I will do that later. “Less than a week” I can’t wait to get back to school oh how I miss it.
The wind passes my hair and I just love that feeling it is so relaxing and makes me fall asleep. I worry if my mom and his girl will get suspicious and think of something that might be correct. Before he turns right I blurt out. “I think we should go home. Can you please turn?” He glances at me. I gulp before I say anything. “I don’t want them to think something happened or is happening.” He rolls his eyes and goes the way to the house. The car was silent and it feels like I have been here my whole life … in this car. I stare of into space again and imagine him groping me and whispering things in my ear, oh and nibbling my skin, my whole body. I see him walking shirtless towards me and making me feel things that I never have felt. His touch jumped me out of my thoughts and I realized that I was biting my lip again. He pushes my hair behind me ear then pulls his hand away to steer the wheel. I turn so I can face him. Why does he have to be older? Why am I younger?
Minutes pass and the day seems darker. We arrive at the house. As soon as we both walked through the door shopping bags were everywhere and their shoes were just laid around. What a mess, its giving me a headache. “Hello… Anyone home!” David yells. I hear footsteps going downstairs and see Kate or as I like to call his girl was wearing a tight dress which showed her body so well and her cleavage was just showing and popping out. “Hey baby I missed you.” She says in a high pitched voice and runs towards him to put her arms around his neck. I didn’t know what to stay i was frozen like I didn’t move, but I tried to remain calm so hard, so hard. I see him hug her back very tightly and places his hand on her lower back like he did to me. I feel like I was just being used. I speed walk to my room and lock the door behind me. I threw an empty water bottle across my room. I HATE HATE HATE him. He gets me so aggravated and makes me feel like his whole world but that’s all a lie. I walk up to my window and it looks like very cloudy. I cover my mouth and bit my lip to remain calm. Alexa you don’t hate him you just dislike how he treats you. I laugh at this thought I just had. Why should I even be mad? He is getting married someday and I’m still in high school. He has a girlfriend and I’m still alone. Oh and did I forget. He is more than ten years older than me. I check my phone for messages and there are plenty from the group chat. James wanted to go clubbing and invited me to go with him and rest of my friends. It sounds like fun I could use a drink or five. After five minutes pass I found my fake I.D. I find my tightest and sexist dress I own since I want to meet someone to get David off of my mind and maybe get drinks free. I put on my black dress bring along thirty dollar that I hide under my bed and sneak out through the back door. Before I left David and Kate were cuddling with each other. I am disgusted. I ignore the image in my head and can't wait for excitement.
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Song For Dolores
RomanceEveryone she saw around her changed. There she stood the same. The Town Seemed Deranged, but she knew she was the one to blame. She tried to be what people have expected her to be. She stayed the same. Everyone had someone. She had no one.
