The moonlight shines upon my hands and slowly makes its way to Brent's arm. My mind runs the images of David and James making me feel some certain way. Their touch, their beating heart against mine, and the way they glide their tongue against their bottom lip. I desperately want to get out and find what my heart desires, which is David. Slowly I start moving my body towards the floor. The bed creaks a bit if I get off to fast. My heart beats faster as I slowly make my way to the floor, I can almost feel the touch off the carpet on my arm.
Brent's arm scares me as he places is it on my hip. Now, I know I need to get out here. Oh dear, how much I wish it would be like those cheesy romantic movies where the perfect man always saves the woman in every troubled situation. I move my hips slowly to the edge of the bed as his touch slowly starts to fade.
As soon as I'm free from his trap he had me in, I feel no other emotion than relieved. I grab my belongings and close the door gently so not even a sound would be heard. I would indeed love a joint, but I no longer should go back to the lifestyle I once have chosen to live like.
The streets filled by nothing, but emptiness and the sound not made by people, but by the sound of nature. To think people will be out partying or do such a thing, I was wrong like I always am. If I knew what my parents would be up to, I wouldn't have been going into the park or even leaving my house in the first place.
I am just a woman who walks with sorrows and mystery. Sometimes, myself wouldn't even know who I am.
The emptiness and the sound of almost nothing pleases me to the point that I would stay here forever and not see a single person. I find my self at peace for once. I don't know where I am going. I should go to the people I love, which are my parents, but my heart desires to see him for at least one second. All I ever want to do is feels his touch on me, and him gazing upon my naked body. I want him to want me.
It's four in the morning and all I could think about is David. The cold breeze brings shivers all over my body and increases the goosebumps I already had from thinking of David. I can't take this any longer, I can't have the thought of him touching me anymore, I need to experience this all myself.
The thought of knowing that what I may be doing is risk taking makes me more anxious.
His door faces me as I face the door back. My feet stay still and my body feels numb. Maybe this was a mistake coming here, I knew I should considered making a smarter decision rather than this one I have already made. This lump in my throat I have been holding since the minute I spotted his house made me realize I have no need for me here.
The light of his kitchen shines through the window, glowing upon me. I look to see who has come to the kitchen. From the moment I saw him my heart felt like as it were to bounce off my chest on latch onto his. My body feels rejuvenated when his eyes decide to glance towards myself who was such a mess. The sound of the door opens and his face appears. I run towards him and give him a hug. I feel as if I can never let go. My body's reaction towards this is an amazing feeling. As I unlatch his eyes stays on mine. "Alexa..." He breathes and he caresses my fingers. He looks out side to side then brings me into his lovely home. "What brings you here?" He offers me to sit on the couch which I delightfully take. "I wanted to see you for the last time before I probably lose my mind. You just amaze me and umm, actually I don't know what I'm doing here." I stand up and look away from him. " I insist on you staying all I ever wanted to do was just be around you. I surround myself with things that I feel nothing about, but when I'm with you I feel everything." He just admitted something to me that I have been wanting to hear these past months. I lean in and kiss his forehead, then his nose, and lastly his cheek. "David, I have many feelings towards you, but I am a loyal girl and I won't let you hurt Kate's heart. There is nothing mores tally painfully than a heart break from the one you love. So please I hope that if you want to be with me it will not hurt anybody." David not only is astonished for what I have said, but is also delighted because he has a smile on his face. His lips finally meet mine which I have longed for. I can feel myself getting wet just by this simple kiss he gave me. "This would be our little secret, okay?" He exclaims and I nod my head. "Well then you should get going, I will stop by your house later on, would you like a ride? I mean I could leave you off in the corner so nobody suspects anything." He gets his car keys and leads me out the door. "I can't imagine that you walked from your house all the way to mine just to confess this silly feeling you had about me, the fucking drive is twelve minutes I can't even imagine how long it would take walking." He smiles as we both get in the car.
I can't help, but feel turned on by the way he drives. His thumb on his lips which I think is basically teasing me and the way he grips the steering wheels to show his veins almost make me want to climb on him and do something I might regret later on. I bite my lip to resist the actions I want to do to him. "I have told you before that your teeth won't ever sink into your bottom lip when I am around." With his voice no longer kind. I feel he has some disorder he carried along with him because he changes all the time. He can be a sweet and kind man then in a matter of minutes he changes to this cruel, horrible, and absurd man. Although I do really seem to be intrigued by both.
Listening to David's comment I remove my teeth from my bottom lip. My eyes can't seem to be focus on anything else, but him.
He drops me off at the coffee shop and we just sat there in silence. "Goodbye, David" He took the chance of kissing my lips as soon as my mouth closed. "Goodnight!" He says and I quickly gather my stuff and remove myself from the car. I watch his car drive away and I stand here alone. The feeling of his lip on mine was quite pleasant, so soft and plump. His mouth giving me a sweet taste of mint. Why is he such a cruel man, how have I ever fallen for a man with much vain?
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Song For Dolores
DragosteEveryone she saw around her changed. There she stood the same. The Town Seemed Deranged, but she knew she was the one to blame. She tried to be what people have expected her to be. She stayed the same. Everyone had someone. She had no one.
