Song For Dolores

Chapter 7

The drive back to my house was nice. Our conversation was very limited and the drive was also silent. I watch his hands as he steers the car and his vein show when he holds the stick shift. I look over to my house which is outside the window. I had my high heels in my hand. My hair swayed with the wind as I open the car door. He held who knows, but its fine. As we approached the doorway I realized I would be alone with him. Again. I can already feel my cheeks heat up and my lip between my teeth.

  We unlocks the door and opens the door wide. “After you.” He says and guides his hand towards the door. I immediately drop my heels on the floor and sit down on the couch.

 I’m wasted and it feels like I’m losing time just staring at the blank ceiling when I could be sleeping. I watch as he takes his jacket off, slowly. I want him, but I know it isn’t right and he isn’t mine. He meets my eyes. Never thought that he would catch my eyes from across the room.

  He starts walking towards me and plops himself next to me. “Alexa…” He pauses and takes a deep breathe. “I think I should go back to the club so are you fine being by yourself in this state?” He can’t leave I want him next to me holding me. All I want is just to see him and he is leaving to be with Kate. Maybe who knows he might have an affair with a random girl he met at the club and forget about me. My thoughts are driving me crazy. “Alexa?” He says and places his hand on my shoulder. I turn to my left and try to just stare at his eyes. But my eyes desire for his lips. I know I have to tell the truth to him, but with a hint of a white little lie. I can see him already to leave when he takes his hand off of me. I grab it just in time. With both my hands holding his just one hand.

 He licks his lips. He is in the same position, on the edge of the couch. My breathing pattern was different around him. We both slowly intertwine our hands together. He rubs his thumb on my hand. I know my body wants him and is longing for him. He comes closer to me and with his other hand he places it on my cheek. “May I kiss you, Ale-.” He didn’t even finish his sentence because I just went in for it. My insides felt like they were about to explode and could feel myself already getting wet down there. His mouth wrapped around with mine and his tongue intertwined with mine perfectly. I knew I wasn’t experienced with it very much, but my body responded quickly and already knew what to do.

   We back away from each other and my breathing was like I ran a mile without stopping my chest kept rising against his. “This isn’t right.” I know it isn’t he doesn’t need to say it. But it did feel right. He stands up and faces me, he was like a skyscraper when I was seated. He holds out his hand I guess so I can get up. He holds my hand and brings me toward the kitchen.

 I still don’t know why he is taking me there. “We must not speak of this, nor do it again.” Why is it that everything he says hurts my heart, but everything he does makes me complete.

“But before that rule is official I have to do something I have waited for ever since I laid eyes on you.” He says and picks me up and puts me on the counter. He stands between my legs and leans forward. David pulls down my dress slowly starting with the right sleeve then the left and only stopped at where the bra stops. I felt exposed and ashamed and cover myself fast. “Come on baby... not now, don’t cover yourself you’re so perfect and beautiful I can fuck you right here right now with just a glance of you.” My heart races and unwrap myself and expose myself to him.

He uses his fingers to glide around my chest even my boobs. Goosebumps start forming everywhere on my chest and arms. He leans towards my right ear and whispers. “I know your wet for me baby.” Now that he said that I am soaking. He leans in for a kiss and this time it was rough and intense. I would at sometimes moan in his mouth or maybe out loud and he would grunt. As we were kissing he slides his hands up my dress and lifts it up. He guides his hands up towards my clit. I didn’t know whether to focus on the kiss or that he is about to touch me there.

“Baby relax.” I relaxed just a little, but this was the first time any one was touched me liked that so I don’t know how I’m supposed to react. The underwear cloth separated his hands from my clit. Before I even thought about anything else he starts rubbing me there and I feel like a different person. This is what I wanted and I got it. I arch my back and wrap my legs around him. His lips are on my neck now sucking and placing little kisses. I am being pleasured right now and it’s so hard to handle so much at once.

 Moments later he stops and backs away from me like I was a strange alien or something. I was left with my legs dangling and my hands now on my lap, still exposed. “We must get you to bed.” He says. I get off of the counter and adjust my dress. What the hell is wrong with him? I can sleep whenever I want. Why would he just stop? I was enjoying it. I want to cry and kill him at the same time now. “Now! You’re wasting my time!” Asshole.