Song For Dolores

Chapter 16

I see his house from afar, verylonely and dark. Running through my mind is just what's going to happen next,not knowing what to expect. What if he finds out something about me! My anxietylevel is increasing every step I take towards James's house. It's just why hewould call me all of a sudden. Well, not going to lie I was glad I hated theawkward scene but I was so close to David. I ring the doorbell and wait for thedoor to answer. I turn back and see David still looking at me and not moving. Ilip sync "GET OUT!" I see him laugh through his car window which makes melaugh. I turn towards the door and couldn't believe my eyes. It was an old man.An old man with a cane and looked like he had no teeth. His skin so pale andwrinkly, bit dry too. "What do you want?" Whoa! Old people are grumpy and mean.I expected him to offer me cookies and items like that, but I guess that's justwhat grandmas do.

"Um I um I was looking-." I hate how when I am nervous I stutter. Such a bad habit. I try to speak again, but gladly I see James by the window and heading over to the door. I just wait for James. I am guessing he has visitors in his house maybe that's why he called me maybe he was just bored. I feel used! "Pa lei è solo un amico." I don't know what he said, but it sounded so good coming out his mouth. No I can't like him, only kids my age and not friends. "Salve!" It means hi, but in a more formal way, so glad James taught me. The old man smiles and greets me in and I see James smirking at me. I push him a little and stare at him trying to be serious.

The house smells so good like, really good like amazing food. It was a scent of freshness fulfilling my nose. I feel like they remodeled the whole house, it looks different since the last time I came. The walls were more colorful and some parts were more dull then others. "James?" I turned and looked and no one was around me. Where did they go? I don't even know whats going on. I feel like I am dreaming, am I? "James?" I say once again. From a distance I see a shadow. I shadow resembling what looks like James's Body. The shadow gets closer and closer. Slowly starting to fade as the light reaches. I move closer to it and see James's pale skin. "Hey! I wanted to scare you!" He said and put his arm around my shoulder. "Well you did, but anyways why did you call me?" He leads me towards his room which confuses me because he was silent. His room definitely changed. The wallpaper he used to have were covered by his shelves, there was beer bottles all in one corner, and condom packets ripped up around the trash. My mind is telling me to leave, but I can't I know I can't leave he is my best friend. I sit on his bed and he sits on the chair in front of me. I feel nervous in front of him for some odd reason. Obviously he has changed. "Alexa..." Oh god he is going to tell me bad news, I can just feel it. Nervously looking around the room and trying to avoid any bad about come hit me like a shovel. "David gave this to me and told me to tell you that he knows. I mean I never opened it, but I guess..." Why am I so thoughtless to leave it where it was so noticeable to see. That means he had read the few things I had put in there and what else could it mean that he knows I like him! "What! When was this?" I can't take my hands off the little journal I had and can't stop thinking about someone else's hands on it especially from the person I want least to know about it. "Like I think three days ago." He knew! He knew this whole time. Maybe that's why he sat so close to me and maybe that's why he wanted to drive me home. He wanted to humiliate me. Idiot. "Listen don't freak out I didn't open it." He could see that I feel tense by the way I am holding the journal, with a hard grip and me biting my lip so hard that I might be able to taste the blood. Hell I am not sad I am more mad that someone invaded my privacy even if it was a little written. "I know. I heard you." I reply and stand up. James stands up after me and grabs my shoulders. "Come on! What's the big deal, love?" I glance at his eyes and see his pupils changing sizes. I pull his hands from me and walk past him towards his door. I don't want to be around people. I must leave I can't stay here, the thing that won't process through my mind is why David had the nerve to go into my room and take something that isn't his. Who even does that, oh wait Idiots. "Here take a pill." He turns me around and forced it onto my hands. The pill and glass of water. "What is this trash you are giving me? I bet it's drugs, you know what..."
"It's umm for going to sleep, I know you're tired so I must give this to you so you may sleep well." He rubs my shoulder with his hand. He is right. I need this. I place the pill on the back of my tongue and let the water flow it down my throat. I lick my lips and place the cup down. I wipe my mouth and open his door to walk away.

I approach the front door, but was stopped when I heard, "Hey Youngster, you must be James's girlfriend the one who called me an 'asshole'. Just to let you know he will not be with you forever so make sure you got a boyfriend next of that list of yours." What is happening my head feels like it's spinning. I think I am imagining her I must be. "Here take this." She hands me a phone hard on my chest.
"What the..." I didn't finish my sentence because James came out of nowhere and started to speak. "Caroline? What's going on?" With her stupid pink heels she walks away and all I hear is the noise of the heel against the hardwood floor. My mouth open and I look at James. My chest rises and falls. I breathe out my mouth and slowly back away from James. I feel like my head is spinning, I feel nauseous and want to get away. "James I am tripping!" I drop everything I had held onto. I grab his shirt and pin him to the wall. "What did you give me?" Tears start to roll down my eyes. I don't know why I am getting so emotional. "What the hell did you give me James! Please tell me." I let go off him and back away. I sit on the floor and let my tears out. I can't be doing drive the most I would do would be a cigarette, but nothing more. James leans down towards me and strokes me hair. "You lied to me James! How could you?" "Listen to me you need to relax you are making a big deal out of this! Just let the drugs kick in you will be fine." Is he crazy? I don't want drugs. "James unlike you I want to have a future and not be a stupid idiot like you!" I grab the journal and the phone that is supposedly mine. "Leave me alone and never talk to me!" My hand is shaking also with my body which I can barely do anything but stay still. "You are making a big fucking deal out of nothing! You stupid little girl! I don't understand you and I will never, you need help you are having a stupid meltdown over a stupid little joke I wanted to do on you!" Those words made my inside dead and feel horrible. My heart feels broken because someone I loved and trusted as a friend said that. I open the front door and run out I didn't even think of looking anywhere else but the ground. I walk towards the street to cross, but once again James calls me. I stood on the middle of the street. "What is it James."
"Watch out Alexa." I don't get by watch out nothing's happening to me. When I look ahead of me all I see are lights, then darkness. The light fading away, my emotions drifting through the wind. I feel nothing not even happy. I have nothing too look at, but darkness. "Alexa!" I hear a noise from the distance. "Wake up please don't do this! Wake up!" I try to hear it clearly, but it sounds as if I am underwater and just hear the muffled of people.

I see shadows and hear little music playing. Alexa open your eyes! I think to myself. Why not make a count down. Three...Two...One.
The light hits my eyes and feels like it's burning my eye balls slowly. Once my eyes adjust to the light I see him. He was sleeping on the lonesome chair. I look around the room and it's white. I can barely feel my right leg. I slowly get up and lean my back against the hospital bed. My whole leg almost covered by the white cast against me. I gasp. I broke my leg, but how. The only thing I had remembered was David driving me to James's house. I place my fingers on my lips and they were dry very very dry. I glide my hand across my face and it feels different. Once I touch a specific place which was my cheek it hurt. Hurt so much it felt as something was eating my skin. I look where he is and again he hasn't woken up, just seeing him sleep makes me want to be on him. I lick my lips and start moving my body towards where he was. I just need him to touch my hand and I will feel better just his beautiful touch. "Alexa!" Someone bursts through the door with excitement. Kate.
David wakes up from probably a sweet dream. I was lost. Why are they here but not my parents? I look over to David. His eyes so colored and beautiful it's like a master piece! He walks over to me and places his hand on mine. I look up to him, but he isn't looking back at me, but towards Kate. I snatch my hand away and look the opposite of him. "Kate, baby can you go get the doctor or a nurse?" He says and she nods leaving David and I alone. "David, what happened?" He lowers himself to reach my level. "Let's talk about this later okay?" What no I need to know I am so confused, where is everybody that I love and trust. My sister isn't here, my parents and even James isn't here. I just feel like crying to get the feeling of missing them out of my system. "How long have I been here?" Right when I ask that the Doctor walks in.
"Hello, Alexa I'm Doctor Harvey.." The rest I just zoned out. The doctor walks out. I didn't get one word he said. All I heard was that I dispatch. That means going back home doesn't it? "I will go call your parents A." Kate said. Guess she found a nickname for me. "David, what did he say? I didn't understand." He grips onto my hand and starts to speak. "Well, umm you got involved in a hit and run, and well the incident wasn't bad, but it's better to stay home for a week or two and get a break from school. Good news is ..."
I interrupted him. "There's good news out of this? My parents aren't even here nor is James so what's the good news for? There's nothing good in stuck with you and Kate. Where are they?" I remove the blanket from me and try to get out of this bed, but it hurts to. "Hold on Al." What just because poor Alexa got injured they both have the nerve to call me a childish nickname. He grabs my waist so I won't get out of bed. "Just wait okay listen next time."