My eyes stay on the ceiling above watching the fan move in circles. I think about myself and my life which I don’t usually do unless I stay in silence. Now that I think about it, I never have been with someone truly love or even really liked. I never had anyone hold me, kiss me, tell me things I would love to hear. Sadness had always took over my life, but I try and always put a smile. I always feel like I ruin happiness to people especially families. I am the girl full of sorrows never have I even been truly happy. My mind is too scared for happiness, my mind and body is drowning in an ocean full of sadness, despair, and sorrows. Being betrayed burns every happiness inside of oneself. I’m still like ice, yet I burn everything I touch. A knock on the door surprises me, I never expected anyone to even look for me or care at least. The woman that I opened the door for stood upon me.
“Hey Alexa…” she seems lost and worry in her voice. I nod my head towards her indicating that I am listening. She takes a deep breath out and I already smell the alcohol in her breath. I still don’t understand why she even is here and I don’t even remember even telling her my name. “Umm… do you mind if I take a nap in your bed, David accidently spilled vodka on the bed and I am just tired.” The mention of his name makes me feel weird inside. When she told the story when David spilled the vodka on the bed made me giggle. I can just imagine him try and fixing the mess, which brings a smile to my face. I realize she is still waiting for my answer. I turn to her and reply, “Yes go ahead comfiest bed in this house” I smile towards her, and I grab my phone before I leave out the door and close it. I go downstairs to have a cold glass of water, but that’s when I spot my best friend James standing by the door awkwardly. I laugh a little out loud before I go approach him. I wonder why he is here, not being rude, but I thought this was only family and parents friends party. He met my gaze and he started walking towards me. “Hey James, what are you doing here?” I say while he embraces me. “Hey sleepy head and I’m here since my uncle was invited and he insisted me to come.”
I look down on what I am wearing and just feel my cheeks heat up. I look up to James who gives me a smile. He snakes his hands around my waist. I smile a little it and look up to him, he stares straight ahead which makes my eyes go where his landed. I see David approaching us and I instantly start becoming somewhat nervous. ”Hey James when did you come in?” My mind seems to just stop thinking and mush up everywhere. This can’t be, oh gosh, that’s his Uncle, his ughh, Uncle. I just put on a lip smile and don’t even try to stare, I can feel his gaze on me which makes my insides more nervous than ever. James tightened his grip around me when he noticed I was looking at the ground for a long time. “Well I will leave you kids to it.” David said and nodded as he walked away. I turn to James and see him looking at the alcohol spread throughout the kitchen. “Do you know what I’m thinking we should do?” James said out of the blue. “No, I am not drinking you know what happened last time at Jessica’s house.” It was my first time drinking and I guess I got addicted and just wouldn’t stop. He started to chuckle. He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the kitchen. I watched as he got two shot glass and poured some vodka in each. He handed me one and he both swallowed. I cringe my face on how bitter it was in my mouth. I am not even old enough to even be drinking, hell I’m not even an adult, just yet. James starts pouring another shot, but I’m not sure if I should take his offer. “Come on don’t be a wimp we haven’t even started.” He said then smirked at me. “Fine, but if I get into trouble I’m blaming it on you.” I said leaning closer to him. He handed me another and after that he decided to take more, but I declined on the offers.
My mind felt dizzy and I couldn’t think straight. A feel of satisfaction hit me, a feeling I haven’t felt for so long. I had a sudden urge to just leave this house and roam around everywhere. I grabbed James wrists and dragged him out the door with me. I was about to close the door softly so no one would hear. “What-t ar-r-re-e we do-ing” James slurred. I laughed out of nowhere. I looked down and noticed my hands and James wrapped together like one of my fingers was next to his. I felt a hand touch my arm which gave me Goosebumps everywhere when I say everywhere I mean it. “Where do you guys think you’re going?” Shit. It was David of course he is always there. “Come on man, Can you just chill he ar-r-re abl- l-le to take care of ourshelfs.” I laugh inside in the choice of words he uses. I enter the house before them and head to my room in disappointment. I looked in and checked if David’s girlfriend or whatever was there and it looks like she left. I close the door and jump right in bed feeling tired.
I wake up in what seems midnight and see James lying right next to me and the door wide open. I hate it when it open it juts bothers me. My throat seems dry and also my mouth as I opened it. I get off the bed lightly so James wouldn’t wake up. I head downstairs to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I reach out to the counter to get a cup, and serve my self-water. I sat on the counter and swayed my feet side to side. I turn to the time on the microwave and see its three in the morning. I got down, placed my empty glass down, turned off the light and headed towards the stairs. Barely even seeing I regret turning off the light, that’s when I felt a body right in front of me. “Sorry I was-“ I didn’t finish my sentence since I didn’t know what to say. “Its fine, mind coming down to the kitchen with me?” David says and I nod my head. He grabs a cup and serves himself. I don’t know what to say to make conversation. “So what grade are you in?” He says I know trying to break the silence. “Well I am a junior.” It was embarrassing saying what grade I am in to him for some reason. “I thought about being a teacher but I found designing buildings and objects more interesting.”
“Do you do anything else, but that?” I ask leaning more onto the counter. “I teach some classes in College, but I barely do now.” He has such a dream life. He took the last gulp of his water. I can see his chiseled body through his thin shirt. I watched the movement in his lips, oh how I want them on me.
“Night’ Alexa” he said smiling at me. His voiced echoed through my mind and my mind has captured that smile of his sin my head. “Goodnight” Love.
YOU ARE READING
Song For Dolores
RomanceEveryone she saw around her changed. There she stood the same. The Town Seemed Deranged, but she knew she was the one to blame. She tried to be what people have expected her to be. She stayed the same. Everyone had someone. She had no one.
