Something Gotta Give (BWWM 1/2)

Friends.... Yea Right More Like Frenemies

I walked to the door. Jesse stood there in jeans and a "I love u bestie" shirt, us 4 bought in Wisconsin. Its funny how long ago a year could feel. When you had so much on your mind.

I let her in. I was home alone again like always so you could here the echo of our footsteps. "Soooo." She said while sitting on the couch me and Jake sat on yesterday. Those memories were so vivid. I mean I was close to spilling my guts out to a guy I was in love with.

"I'm gonna be frank with you Jessica. I am. Right now i just want to know why? Why would you touch him?"

"Jake didn't tell you? Were a thing."
I knew she was telling a fib by the way she was biting her lower lip. With my friends it was always easy to tell. Danie's move was her right eyebrow twitched. And Lillie's was she always wrinkled her nose in disgust.

"That's a l!e and you and I both know that." She huffed blowing out a breath.

" You wanna know why Vivian? Because you can get every guy out there you could even get Justin Bieber if you wanted to. And I have no one."

I stood now caught off guard by her outburst. "Its not like I ever provoked them Jesse I never wanted them. I just wanted Jake. One simple guy. Was it so hard to keep you trifling lips off him?"

"In all honesty it was. He was perfect and to top it off you wanted him. So why wouldn't I go for him?"  She stood now.

Why was this so hard for her to understand?

" Jesse were best friends. Best friends don't do that!" I shouted.

"Viv we were never friends. No matter how hard you try we never will be. Because your kind will never be accepted. And if you think about it you and Jake could never be anyway. So I took a prblem off your hands. We all know you already have enough on your plate."

I could feel my heartbeat pulsing through my head. My hands were numb and a dark shade of red.

"That may be true Jesse but your a low down cow. Because when 2 people love each other nothing matters."

"Who said he loved you? Because last time I checked if he did he wouldn't have urged me to kiss him. To allow me to touch him. Viv your merely his side whōrë."

My breathing got hitched in my throat.
What?
I let this information sink in. While a thick cloud of silence and truth polluted the air.

I let out a shaky breath willing myself not to cry. Begging my body not to illuminate a gasp. To show a piece of defeat. I breath heavily. And let all my locked up anger and frustration come out.

"I hate you! " I scream at the top of my lungs. Letting the dead weight of betrayal and disbelief show through my voice.

Shes taken back my surge of violence. As a look of shock is now plastered on her face instead of a smirk.

" Viv it was never like that." She says her voice softer than before.

" I swear." She holds up her right hand like that was supposed to mean something.

"Then tell me how it was, huh? Tell me why."

" I never meant to hurt you, I  just got caught up in the moment and kissed him. You and I both know he's irresistible ." She muttered.

"But you knew I liked him, heck everyone knows that I have feelings for him, and still you betray me?  That's low even for you Jesse." I whispered now keeping my voice steady.

Thinking about It i never would've thought it would come down to this. Betraying me over Jake? A BOY? Ruining our entire friendship to kiss him. Sure no one else understood that he was the guy I was in love with. I had feelings that even I couldn't describe. I was in love. And that was something I couldn't stop my body from wanting. To be loved by someone I loved. To finally say 'I love you.' But to put him, before our friendship. To let it be ruined over him that was not okay.

"Get your pathetic self out of my face, no get off of my porch." I say by now you could hear the loathing I held in my voice. It was like a blade cutting away her body.

"And if I ever see you in my house, by my house, or even looking at my house, I will blow your freaking brains out." I shout.

"Don't call me, text me or better yet when you see me walking down the street walk on the opposite side."

I could feel my body was slowly cooling off. From my climax. But I stood my ground.

"I...I..I'm sorry Viv I really am sorry." She whispered.

"Yeah whatever Jessica, whatever. "
I say satisfied with the look of disbelief on her face.

I slammed the door in her face and walked upstairs to my room and fell onto my bed. Crying myself to sleep. Thinking that I might've just wanted to stay that way.

Asleep. Forever. Asleep.
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Hey! I know you guys felt that the prologue would never come. But here it is I hoped you liked it!! This book will be ending soon not yet though. Make sure you text me with ur answers for the 2nd books name.

Peace! - Lynia