Something Gotta Give (BWWM 1/2)

Things About To Go Down

*Note this is my goodbye letter *

I'm writing this with a broken heart
and a troubled mind.

I think this may be my goodbye.
So here is the reason whyI'm ending all this-this pain......

"Jessica kissed me." He said searching my eyes.

At that very moment I don't know what I felt, hurt, anger, violent but out of all feelings there were I felt betrayed.

I sucked in a breath. "What?" I question. Hoping its a practical joke.

But to my disposal it was the naked truth.

" She kissed me."

I clenched my fists how could she?

My breathing increased. He was my- well technically he wasnt. But he was my man. That low down dirty-.

"Vivian?" His calm deep voice spoke.

"Yes?"

I don't look at him. Because weither anyone acknowledged it or not: it takes two to tango. God I wish he was innocent. But thats just life.

" Are you okay?"

"Yep." I say making the 'p' noticeable.
I mustered a fake smile.

"So are you guys like a thing?" I ask. I mean if so I could not violate the girl code.

"No."

I let out a breath I had trapped from my anxiety.

"So why are you telling me?"

"I don't know. I really don't."
I wanted to cry so bad to scream and fight. But I felt no anger in me.

"You said you had something to tell me." He questioned. This was it now or never. I could tell the guy I live how I feel or not. So I chose never.

"It was nothing." I mean I couldn't tell him now. He looked at me as a friend. So that's what I was right now a friend.

I walked him to the door. "Night Viv." "Night." I sighed as I closed the door.
I walked to my room. I text one person with a purpose in toe: Jessica.

I was ready for tomorrow. I was ready to look my friend in the eye.
I was ready to feel betrayed.

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Sooooo! Drama is about to happen! I can't wait to write the rest of this book!

POLL ALERT: I need to figure out what to call the second book. Its either: 

Giving into the Fight or You and I or Taken

You decide and comment or pm me your suggestions.