Love Like Ghost

another love

warning: sexual / fingering 

I folded the shirt neatly and set it to the side on my bed. Sun was shining through my curtains wind blowing them open every now and then. I was humming quietly to myself as I continued to fold my laundry trying to sort it into piles. The suitcase laid empty and open on the floor next to my bed. "Keeping busy?" Her voice floated into my room from the doorway.

"With all the technology Tony has you think he would make self-folding robots or something." I turned around taking a seat on the edge of my bed.

She leaned against the doorframe. "You sure you want to do this?"

I nodded. "I need some alone time." I sighed, its been weeks since D.C. and I was technically unemployed. Tony offered to keep me on since I had been with the team since the beginning; I told him I'd think about it. He told me I could stay here in case I changed my mind. With SHIELD and Hydra records out in the open they were trying to squash it all out, and they got a lead on Loki's septor. They were all leaving tomorrow, but so was I...or planning to.

She walked towards me, "Are you ever going to tell me what happened out there?" I glanced at her, "Steve has been pretty upset since you have been so distant with him." I frowned; it was hard to face him after everything and half the time he was gone trying to hunt down Bucky. "Kat...we all have a past."

"Mine is messy," my voice was quiet. "Mine is so jumbled."

She eyed me suspiciously. "I think you remember more than youre letting on."

"I-I," I opened and closed my mouth a few times. "It's coming back more; pieces are starting to fit together better."

"And Barnes?"

I chewed on my bottom lip watching her look at me already having put the story together herself. "I can't."

Nat put her hand on my knee reassuring me. "Steve is a good guy." She reminded me, "He'll take care of you." Her eyes flashed around my face, "I know you feel something there." I looked away from her as she stood up. "At least stay for the party and then you can go off on her self actualization journey." I rolled my eyes, "Thor really wants to see you before he goes back to Asgard." She looked at me seriously. "Talk to Steve; he really cares about you."

"I care about him too."

"Not the same way as Barnes though..." I looked down ashamed. "He's a lost cause Kat."

I stood up a flash of angry lighting up my face, "He knew me. He-he remembered me."

Nat frowned, "And he still left." I faltered back falling back onto my butt on the bed. "I''m sorry." she walked forward bending down in front of me. "I dont want you to get hurt holding on to something like that. Whoever you two were before those people are gone." I couldnt speak, the words lodged themselves in my throat. She straightened up and left my room leaving me with no peace.

I stood up finally after a while of self pity. I walked over to my vanity where makeup and hair care products sat askew on the table as I packed them away in order of need. I pulled open the small draw and dug my hand into the far back my fingers grasping at the fake chain. The plastic dog tags sat plainly in my hand.

Sweat dripped down hitting me across my open mouth saltiness erupting along my tastebuds. The moan escaped right after as I stared up at him hair shifting back and forth on his head as he moved. His hand gripped my thigh pushing it out to the side as his metal hand gripped around my bicep to hold it down. "So," his voice sound underwater. "Fucking." He snarled, "Tight." He leaned forward cold metal spilling onto my naked chest from his tags touching me briefly as he pushed himself deeper wet hair clinging to his face. Then he straightened back up moonlight hitting the silver on his moist chest, he pushed his hand into my cheek turning it to the side, and pressed me further into the bed hitting sometime deep inside. The last thing I saw was two silver tags swinging in front if my face before I closed my eyes.