headaches | levihan au (slow updates)

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Why do I feel comfortable when I'm with you?

"Tell me something about your childhood then."

"Tsk. Just ask Erwin about me since we have almost the same experiences as a child." I replied as I grabbed a cup of water. My childhood is not that special after all. Except for not knowing who my father is, I don't think my childhood is worth sharing after all. 

"Eh? C'mon Levi, I've already told my story to you guys so I want to hear yours."

"But-"

"No buts. Don't worry, I won't judge you. And, I don't think you have any bad memories from your childhood compared to me." 

I lowered my head, trying to avoid her gaze. She has a point, we've already heard her story as a child, so I guess this is a sign to share an experience with her--or something else. 

"Okay." Pause  "I'll tell you something about my childhood." I replied, still trying to avoid her gaze. 

"I see. Go on, then." Hange replied as she tried to grab something on the table.

I didn't expect the both of them to invade my kitchen, but with my current state, it doesn't matter anymore. And I don't know why. 

"I haven't met my father since I was young." 

Silence. 

This is why I don't like to share my experiences with others. Society can be harsh when they heard the deepest secrets of a person. She looked at me briefly, as she turned her back. 

I don't know, but I'm hurt that she doesn't accept my past. 

"Umm, Levi-"

"It's fine. I'm used to everyone having that reaction when they heard about my past. I'm-"

"No Levi! You don't understand!" Hange replied frustratingly. She grabbed a fistful of her hair, as she faced back at me. And it made me wonder. 

She's crying? 

"I-I don't know, you might call me a freak but please- here me out." She took a step forward. "I've always hated the way my parents raised me and the interaction of the people around me, but I never knew that you had a harder time than me." She reached out her hand towards me. Unexpectedly, I realized that her hand is caressing my face. 

But why I am desperate for this touch. Why I am longing for a touch that I've never felt before?

Finally, I feel your warmth, Hange.  After all this time, I thought I won't see you again.

"Hey Four-Eyes, don't cry. I just mentioned a sentence of my experience and you ended up crying in an instant. You haven't heard my entire story." I replied as I placed my hand at the top of hers that continues to caress my face. "And you are caressing my face, Four-Eyes. We are not in a drama series." 

It probably clicked on her, when she suddenly looked at me with wide eyes. 

"Oh no, I-I'm sorry. It's just, it's just-"

"It's just?" I looked at back at her.

"Look I'm sorry, my emotions were really-"

"Oi Hange, I'm just kidding. I didn't expect someone would react to my experience in that way, especially that I just told a single sentence." I replied as I patted her head. "You're one of the people who didn't judge or treated me badly when you heard my "single sentence" experience." 

Hange looked at me, once again with wide eyes. 

"Did you just- Levi did you just smile again just like the last time?" 

Damn. This person is indeed quick. 

"Wait, no I'm just hallucinating. Again, I'm sorry for acting like that in front of you. It won't happen again promise-" 

As I was about to reply back, we heard someone clearing his throat. 

"Hmm, very interesting. I didn't know that my best friend is a smooth talker."

"Shut up, Erwin-"

"Nah, Levi I saw that." He replied while wiggling his eyebrows. 

"H-How long were you watching us, Erwin?" Hange asked as she looked at the floor, embarrassed. 

"During your 'mini-drama scene' together. Well, I won't say that Hange's wrong though."

"ERWIN!" 

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Might post multiple updates. Finals month (Yes, I called it finals month instead of week) is hectic due to numerous requirements, conferences, and currently exams. And I have no opportunity to edit my drafts for this fan fiction due to the time allotment for these activities and such. 

But probably next week, I can post updates just like before, since the 2nd semester is over soon in my college.