headaches | levihan au (slow updates)

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Am I really getting comfortable with you?

"Just kidding, geesh. But Levi, even it's a single sentence, your experience is a very deep one. Just always remember that we were here for you, especially since Hange knows a bit of your past now." Erwin replied as he stood near the kitchen corner.

It seems that this is how it ends.

Great. Now I'm hearing things.

"Levi are you okay? You spaced out." Now it's Hange's turn to speak. Wait, didn't Erwin talked awhile ago?

Suddenly I heard a snap of fingers beside me.

"Levi, you are indeed spacing out. You didn't even noticed I'm currently beside you right now." Erwin replied as he looked at me.

"I-I'm fine, it's just-"

"Hange is it okay if you leave us for awhile?"

"Is he alright?" Hange looked at me worriedly.

"He is. Both of us need to discuss something. It's about his mom." Erwin replied as he gripped on my shoulders, while giving me a you owe me this one look.

"Okay. I'll go to the bathroom then. Where's it by the way?"

"Just walk further then turn right." I replied. I do feel bad of letting Hange leave us for awhile, to be honest.

"Okay, I'll be back."

Please come back-

"Levi, be honest with me. Our families known each other for more than a decade, so please tell me what's really going on with you."

"If I'm going to tell you, you would tell your mother and your mother would tell my mo-"

"Levi I won't tell this to my mother. As your bestfriend, tell me what's wrong. Who knows I haven't told you something as well."

Glancing at the cupboard, I couldn't face Erwin in this kind of situation. Is it alright to share to him that aside from headaches, I get to hear a voice that sounded like me?

"You're hearing a voice similar to you isn't?"

"What do you mean?" How the fuck did he knew that? Is Erwin Smith a psychic by chance now?

"I get that you don't want to admit it. Fine, I'll tell you something that I haven't shared to my parents and even to you before. I remembered everything from my previous life."

Hange's P.O.V.

Throughout my life, I never consider myself as someone who has a social group in the society.

I remembered my grandmother when I was young telling me that I might be too friendly in the past so that's why I have few people to talk and rely on. Obviously, as a child, I wondered what part of the past when I'm always alone?

Even right now, I'm still thinking of the possible what ifs of what my late grandmother referred to me before.

Looking at myself in the mirror, I realized that my face was a mess due to the dried tears. As what Erwin said, that sentence alone is deep enough to be understood. Despite a few information about his successful school life, I realized that behind all of that, he had a weight that he carries on to move forward. He's incomplete.

But what made me wonder is why I acted like that in front of him? What's with caressing his face, Hange?

I decided to splash on some water on my face, as I remembered what I did awhile ago. His face, he's so handsome indeed.

"Ugh stop it Hange, you look like you just saw your crush." I said loudly to myself as I continued to splash some water on my face.

Hold on, does this mean he's really considered as a crush? Wait, I haven't been attracted to others since then (due to people avoiding and hating me, then my parents were strict in letting me meet with others), does that mean he's my first crush? Is that the reason why I feel so comfortable with him?

I looked at my hands. His face, so smooth yet so soft-

"Ugh Hange calm down. You were not that close enough with the both of them, so this is just admiration. Not a crush. You are just a client, and he is a lawyer. Nothing else- no wait, you're just friends. Not close friends." I said as I looked at my reflection.

I dried my face and hands with the toilet tissue that can be found near the sink. Glancing back at the mirror, I opened the door as I made my way towards the kitchen.

His apartment is neat, no joke. Upon reaching the kitchen area, I heard that they were still discussing something.

"You might not know who they are, but in time, you will find them and meet them once more."

I know that Erwin seems to be a strategic person (that's why he ended up being a lawyer), but damn, I never knew he sounded like a motivational speaker as well.

"Is that why I feel comfortable to some people, even with you and-"

Wait hold up, you and what? Who Levi who? Who are you comfortable with?

Could it be, he likes someone else right now?

"I won't tell you, but sooner you would know why and it's up to you if you would change something in the present. I told you everything that I remember. I remember you and Hange."

Huh, Erwin remembers me? Like I just met them before regarding my father's case but what does he mean he remembers me?

"Umm is everything alright?" I walked in, as I glanced to the both of them. Erwin seems to be in shock to see that I was now in between them, while Levi—what is that look?

Why does he look at me longingly?