A SAMCRO Princess in a Mayans World

Chapter 7

16 Years Ago (Nora was 18)

Nora's Point of View

It was two weeks before Christmas and Jax and I were still sneaking around. It had been a fun few months, but it was getting old and I was beginning to think that Jax really had no intention of taking our relationship public. Deep down it hurt, but it was too hard to stay away from him. He was everything I wanted. He made me feel like I actually mattered, or at least he did behind closed doors. However, Jax's fear of what everyone thought if we actually became a couple clouded his mind.

I woke up and looked over at Jax who was staring at me with his "come fuck me" eyes. Before I got caught up in the moment I rolled my eyes at him and got out of bed. I quickly pulled on my clothes and stood there with my hands on my hips, knowing what I had to do.

"Babe, come back to bed," Jax said, his voice husky with sleep and desire.

"I can't do this anymore," I whispered, afraid my voice might fail me if I tried to speak any louder, "We have been seeing each other for four months, Jax. Honestly, I don't know if you have anyone else you're seeing on the side, but that's not what bothers me. What bothers me is that you are keeping me a secret. If you are ashamed of me and my age, then this can't happen anymore. I know I love you and I have no idea if you love me or not, but I'm tired of you jerking me around."

"Nora...you know that's not true..." Jax said as he sat up in bed. The pained look on his face said it all. He knew he fucked up.

"It is true," I replied as my eyes welled up with tears, "I'm not going to be your fuck buddy anymore. It's breaking my heart that you don't want more. I'm done."

Grabbing my bag off the chair in his dorm room, I took one last look in his direction and opened the door to leave. Opie was standing at the door ready to knock.

"What the fuck?" Opie growled as he looked down at me. My hair was a mess, there were tears on my cheeks, and I was clearly leaving Jax's room with a broken heart.

"Leave it alone, Ope," I managed to choke out, "It's done."

I made my way down the hall just as Opie began tearing into Jax about sleeping with his baby sister. Part of me wanted to run back in there and defend Jax, but I just couldn't muster up anymore energy that I knew would just be wasted on him. As soon as I got outside I lit a cigarette and leaned against the wall by the door to the clubhouse. I let the tears fall as I took a long drag on the cigarette and despite knowing I had made the right decision, I felt empty and alone.

Just then, the door flew open and Jax ran outside, shoes and jeans on and struggling to pull a t-shirt over his head. He turned and noticed me standing there and he looked sad. He pulled the cigarette out of my hand and threw it on the ground before pushing me up against the wall and kissing me hard and passionately. I whimpered against his lips and wrapped my arms around his neck, wondering what had changed in five minutes. Whatever it was, I wasn't about to let this moment pass me by.

After a moment Jax pulled away slightly and as he wrapped his arms around my waist and looked into my eyes, he smiled at me.

"No more hiding darlin," Jax whispered, "I love you and if you'll still have me, I'm yours. Always."

*****

Present

Nora's Point of View

The day Opie saw me leaving Jax's room, that day had changed my life. Turns out, Opie already knew about us and he wondered how long it would take us to tell him. After I left his room that morning, Opie turned to Jax and told him he was an ass. Opie could tell from the pain in Jax's eyes when I left that he was in love with me. Opie's exact words..."who am I to keep you from the one you love"? That's all it took for Jax to jump out of bed and chase after me.