BxB Cashby Healed My Heart (Completed)

Chapter 7

A month had passed since that moment on the hill and me and Austin had talked literally every day. It wasn't easy for me to be so close with someone but I found myself wanting to talk to Austin all of the time. I still struggled with being able to text him or call him first because I never wanted to bother him, but Austin never let a day pass without at least texting me. He was constantly on my mind and when I felt down just thinking about his smile could perk me back up again.

I think it was clear that this was past a crush and my feelings were getting stronger. I really tried to ignore them because I was definitely not good enough for him. I wasn't even sure about his sexuality because it was something that never came up. I just had to ignore the feelings until they went away because I couldn't mess this up by him finding out about them. He would probably just be disgusted.

I was sat at our usual spot at lunch, replying to one's of Austin's text while the others ate.

"Who are you texting?" Aaron asked me.

"No-one," I shrugged. Aaron and Jaime will still funny about Austin like everybody else in this stupid town was.

"Oh come on," Jaime smiled, "Is she hot?"

Yes, very hot. But he's not a she.

"I'm not texting a girl," I rolled my eyes and blushed.

"Are you texting Austin?" Lucas wiggled his eyebrows.

I blushed, "Maybe..."

"You're still talking to him?" Jaime asked with wide eyes.

"He's a really nice guy, don't listen to the rumours," I replied.

"At least some people are understanding..." Lucas glared at him.

"Being understanding has nothing to do with it," Aaron intervened, "He still killed people."

"In self-defence!" Lucas argued.

"Guys!" Jaime held up his hands, "Let's not get into this again. Can we just agree that we are never going to agree on this?"

Lucas rolled his eyes, "Fine."

"Whatever," Aaron shrugged.

I sat in silence while I eagerly text Austin back. We were going to see the new Captain America movie tonight and I was really excited but nervous at the same time. I was always nervous around Austin though...I was too scared that I would mess things up.

Aaron and Jaime were involved in their own conversation when Lucas turned to me.

"So...you got plans with Austin tonight?" He whispered.

I blushed, "Erm...yeah. We're going to the movies."

He raised one eyebrow, "Movies?"

I just nodded, "Yeah, why?"

"You and Austin are going to the movies...just you and him?" He responded.

My heart started to accelerate and my palms were beginning to sweat. What was he insinuating? Did he think we were dating?! No...he couldn't! He couldn't know I was gay! I wasn't ready for anyone to know yet! I could feel my breathing start to get a little out of control and my thoughts were incoherent. I tried to concentrate on my breathing just like Austin had taught me to do.

I took a deep breath as I said, "Yes just me and him. We're friends..."

"Is he taking you for dinner?" He continued to ask questions.

"I don't know! What's with all the questions?!" I blurted out in a panic. I instantly regretted it though when I realised how paranoid I sounded. I shouldn't have snapped at him either...Oh God. He's going to hate me, isn't he? I couldn't handle all of the different emotions going on inside of me right now.