BxB Cashby Healed My Heart (Completed)

Chapter 27

I had never been so disgusted in myself in my entire life. Why didn't I tell him that I love him back?! It was the truth! I was so in love with him that it hurt...so why did I tell him that? What is wrong with me? Why do I have such a hard time telling people what I feel or what's going on in my head? I still have such a hard time communicating that I ended up hurting the person that I loved.

Oh my God...Austin. I can't even imagine how horrible he must be feeling right now. He's going to hate me...I don't blame him. I don't deserve him...I never did. He deserved someone who could tell him openly just how much they care not a stupid scared dick like me. I was nearly home now but I debated running back to Lucas's and begging for his forgiveness. I need to tell him how I feel and beg for him to forgive me. Not that I deserved it. But he deserved an explanation.

I was about to turn around when I realised that my mom had asked me to come home. I would have to talk to Austin later. I turned the corner that came down to my street and I stopped in my tracks. My dad's car was outside. He was supposed to be at work. What was he doing home? Wait! My mom was home too...she was supposed to be at work. And she wanted me home...why?

Dread suddenly washed through my body. They know. Why else would they be home?! I started to panic...my mom didn't seem angry on the phone. But maybe she was just covering it up. My thoughts were a complete mess as I stood outside my house. Who would have told them? Maybe they work with someone's parents...it seemed likely. Were they going to hate me? They were never homophobic but I didn't know how they were going to react to me being gay. My shaky hand reached for the door handle before I nervously stepped inside.

I walked through to the living room to see my parents sat there talking. When they saw me they smiled brightly which I guessed was a good sign.

"Hi Alan...how was your day?" My dad asked.

"F-fine..." I lied, "What's going on? Why are you home?"

They looked at each other before my mom said, "Come sit down sweetie..."

I sat down and I could feel my breathing getting heavy, "So, what's going on?"

"Well..." My dad started, "The company that I work for has had a really good year. We're making more money than we ever have before and we're gaining more and more clients..."

"Well, that's great..." I said. I was unsure of why he was telling me this.

"It is," he agreed, "So...my company decided to expand in order to be in better contact with their clients. And...they think that I would be the best person to be in charge."

"You got promoted?" I asked.

My dad nodded so I smiled, "Congratulations. That's...awesome."

"Yeah it is," My mom smiled, "But...there's more."

I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion as my dad continued, "Like I said...they want to expand. Which means setting up a new office in an area where we've been shown a lot of interest. And that happens to be-."

"Arizona," My mom finished and looked at me in concern.

I was still confused, "Arizona?"

"Phoenix to be more precise..." My dad sighed, "And for me to be able to run things we would have to..."

"Move to Phoenix," My mom said.

"W-what?" I stuttered.

"If I take this promotion..." My dad rubbed the back of his neck, "We would have to move to Arizona."

I felt like my World had been ripped out from under my feet. Move to Phoenix? They can't be serious? I can't move away! I have my friends here and my life here and...Austin. No, no, no. I can't leave him! He's the most important person to me in the World. I need him.