BxB Cashby Healed My Heart (Completed)

Chapter 32

I was completely numb. I didn't know what to do...my parents had left me alone 10 minutes ago so I could process the fact that I was leaving tomorrow. My mind was whirling and I couldn't really process what was going on. Oh no...when that happens, it's normally followed by-not being able to breathe. I can't breathe. I couldn't make sense of what was going on and my entire body was hurting. I collapsed onto the floor as sobs started to roll over my body and my lungs were starting to scream for me to breathe. But I couldn't. Tears started streaming down my face as I was gulping for oxygen.

I crawled onto the floor trying to even my breathing but I was just in too much of a panic. Cohesive thoughts started crawling their way back in and I remembered that I had to take deep breaths. Eventually, after 20 minutes, my thoughts started to finally make sense again.

I was moving tomorrow. How was I supposed to say goodbye to my friends? How was I going to say goodbye to Austin? There was no way...my parents wouldn't let me. I would just vanish without anyone knowing what really happened to me. No...they have to give me a break! Surely they would at least let me say goodbye to my friends, right? They have to. They're not that unreasonable. But I know that they wouldn't let me say goodbye to Austin. My heart felt like it was breaking.

How could I not say goodbye? We hadn't even discussed how we were going to keep in touch for a year before he could come and get me. My parents didn't know that Austin was living at the Arteaga's and surely they would let me keep in touch with Lucas. Maybe we could talk through Lucas. But I still needed to explain this to him. I was at a loss about what to do.

My door suddenly opened and I jumped as my dad walked in. He glanced at me on the floor and his eyes furrowed slightly.

"Are you okay?" He asked me.

I looked at him in disbelief but didn't answer. Of course I wasn't okay. Did I look okay?

He sighed when I didn't answer him and walked over to my window and pulled a lock out of his pocket.

I rolled my eyes, "Really?"

"Yes, really," He turned to look at me, "Quite frankly, me and your mother don't trust you."

That would have hurt me if I wasn't so numb. I watched him lock my window before placing the key in his pocket. He turned to walk out of my door. I knew I had to act quickly and ignoring my parents wasn't going to get me anywhere.

"Please..." I begged him and he froze in his spot.

He turned around and I swore that I saw a flash of sympathy cross his face, "We don't have a choice, Alan."

My face distorted in pain, "At least let me say goodbye..."

"I can't do that," He disagreed straight away.

"He doesn't know I'm leaving!" I begged, "At least let me say goodbye to my friends so they can tell him. And...they deserve to know too."

I could see that he was considering it so I tried again, "Please dad..."

He sighed but didn't say another word as he walked out of my room. I couldn't believe it. I genuinely didn't believe that he could be this heartless. I thought they were better than that. Anger flooded my veins as I walked over to my window and pulled on the lock. But it was on real tight. There was no getting out of it.

I yelled out and smacked the window with the palms of my hand. I was so damn frustrated! I sank on my bed with my head in my hands. My leg was shaking up and down when I heard my door open again. My dad walked in with my phone in his hand. My heart leapt in hope.

"You call, Jaime, Aaron and Lucas but no-one else," He told me, "And I'm staying here while you call them."

I just nodded in appreciation because at least it was something. I could at least tell Lucas to pass on a message to Austin. I took my phone off of my dad and saw that I had 20 missed calls from Austin along with numerous missed calls and texts from Jaime, Aaron and Lucas. I decided to call Jaime first. I glanced at my dad who stood on the other side of my room while Jaime's phone rang through.