the book of my messy thoughts

Take everything when you leave

"Listen,

if your going to leave, thats fine.

And I know you promised 7 months ago while I was crying into your neck but I also know that sometimes it rains even when its not supposed & sometimes boys kiss girls they shouldn't & we tear flowers out just to watch them die & things change.

So I understand if your done,

but please, when your packing all your sweaters & books, don't forget to take all the 3 AM phone calls, & photographs where were smiling so wide it looks like we've never known the feeling of in the pit of your stomach when someone screams " I don't love you anymore"

Take back every kiss, every night you feel asleep next to me, every poem I wrote you, every song you sang to me, every "I love you more fight," every shock I felt in my skin when you brushed against me.

I was never scared of ghosts until you left but now I see see u everywhere & god if your going to kill me please just do it quickly because I see you in everything & it making it hard to breathe "

   -I won't say I don't miss you but I think my mother knows anyway (via extrasad)