the book of my messy thoughts

Am not easy to love

I am not an easy person to love. Some days i will whisper how beautiful you are while planting gentle kisses all over your body. You will giggle and try to fight me off and in that movement my heart will have never felt so light.

But other days my mind is a storm cloud threatening to explode, I will be a bundle of emotions that I cannnot quite keep contained. I will be cold, distant, & you will look at me like I am not the same person you fell in love with.

I am a broken light switch. My moods flicker without anyone flipping me on or off. I wake up each morning wondering which me will you encounter that day. I always hope its the one that will make you stick around.

I am not easy to love. But what I need you to understand is whether there is war waging inside my mine or I am the kind of person you adore, I will always love you.

I will love you in the morning. I will love you when you cry. I will lobe you when am angry. I will love you when your being stubborn. I will love you when you don't even love yourself. I will love you.

I know there will be days when you want to give up on me but am asking you, please don't. You see, you are the only one who has been able to settle the storm inside me before I even realize its surfacing.

I am not easy to love but promise that I will always put up a high. And I will love you know matter which of my light switches flips on that day.
Via (bl-ossomed)