𝖲𝖤𝖫𝖤𝖭𝖮𝖯𝖧𝖨𝖫𝖤, william vangeance

12

"i like you.."

the captain stopped, everything froze.

your eyes didn't lie, he knows you're telling the truth.

his heart was beating so fast, yet his head held him back from saying the words he wanted to spat out.

the words he wanted to clear out.

he wanted to tell you how he truly feels too, but he was afraid of his own emotions.

he has always been.

"pardon?" his tone was as calm and gentle as ever, as if he shrugged yours, and his feelings. like a joke he pretended he didn't catch up on and is already throwing off the tension to lessen your embarrassment.

upon hearing his reply, you immediately got the hint. chuckling, you broke eye contact with him, ashamed of your confession and these.. stupid emotions.

what more would you expect? no that's wrong. what did you expect?

he's william vangeance, titled as one of the most promising candidates of being the next wizard king of clover kingdom. he's the leader of the most noble magic knights squad there is.

he's honestly too good to be true.

more importantly, he's too good to be yours.

"ah.. it was nothing, apologies captain, i think it's the sleepiness getting to me." you tried to make it seem like how you said, faking a yawn as you tried your best not to snap and cry infront of him. afterall, you have no rights to step up and speak of these foolish emotions as you are only here to do your job as a magic knight and serve the people of clover.

immediately standing up, you removed his cape and placed it on where you sat before, "have a good night rest captain vangeance." you spat before turning around and leaving the man.

william was frozen in his spot, your eyes tell more than just your excuse.

he's being too irresponsible with his actions that ended up hurting you once more, but now, mentally.

the clear sparkle and sincerity was not difficult to see in your eyes when you said those words. and the way those pair of e/c-ish periwinkle eyes lost stars when he had avoided your confession, his world seemed to have rotated upsidedown.

one thing is clear in both of your minds.

you fucked up, real good.

-

after running off pathetically, like a child that has gotten her candy taken. you found yourself lying in the middle of a grass field, the moon shining brightly infront of you.

honestly, even the moon looks like it's mocking you for saying such things that sure is to get declined.

'who said i'm mocking you, dearest?' a voice popped in your head, eyes still glued above.

"i'm.. lost." you mumbled, a single tear rolling down your cheek.

'trust time, darling. you have plenty of full moons to witness. do not be afraid, i will and is ready to listen.' it replied, your lips quivered.

your fists hit your chest, hoping to make the pain go away.

"i'm scared.. it hurts." continuing to hit yourself as tears rolled down your face.

'you don't have to regret anything, my darling. it is not your fault that you are made as a fragile and soft being.' whoever was the owner of this voice sounded so nice and gentle, only making you cry more.

"tell me, why am i going through this when i have yet to discover and know about that man.." sobs escapes your lips as you continued to vent silently.

"he hides his true appearance— to me.. to the world. i'm that dumb to fall for someone i'm aware that's unable to give back the affection i give.."

".. i'm being pathetic." you closed your eyes, tears unstoppably rolling down your cheeks, your raged breathing and cries echoing around the empty plains. closing your eyes and feeling the cold wind of the night brush through your skin, you felt as if someone had cupped your cheek and wiped your tears.

it felt peaceful for a second.

'sleep now, my sweetest creation. it is not time for you to act yet. enjoy the moments you will witness, until then, i will meet you again.'

the last thing you saw was someone approaching your resting figure as you blacked-out.

-

the birds chirped as morning sunrise greeted your vision, it was warm and someone had been knocking on your door nonstop making you fumble your sheets off your head.

after finally getting off, you brushed off the strands of your hair back and told whoever is outside to wait.

finally opening the door, you were greeted by a very lively as usual yvane.

"hey y/n~! oh my! who are you?!" her expression changed from radiating sunshine to worry and a confused look.

"what happened? may i come in?" you didn't waste a second to open the door further so the woman could enter, then slight slamming the door off and walking back to your bed to sulk.

"hey are you okay? why are your eyes so puffy and red? are you not feeling good? i told you not to do anything too much as your body is still recovering.." she scolds in a worriedly tone, sitting beside you and combing your hair using her hand.

"you can tell me, i'll listen."

tears formed in your eyes, yet you couldn't get to speak it out.

"it's not that serious, i was only feeling a little off, no worries please. i'm all fine." physically, yes. mentally? ..... no.

yvane pulls you in a warm hug, patting your head comfortingly as you tried your best not to let a single tear drop.

atleast you have her.

"hey.. hey. you can cry all you want hm? it's alright if you don't want to tell me yet, just know that i'm always here for you and you can tell me anytime as long as you're comfortable enough to speak of it." she assures, patting your back gently as you sobbed on her shoulder.

you felt pained so hard, with such small amount of time you somehow managed to get attached so easily and here you are, crying your eyes out.

'... pathetic'

after minutes of your silent cries, finally, you managed to calm down as you now boringly gazed up at your plain ceiling, laying flat on your bed, feeling nothing.

"y/n? i met vice captain langris on my way here and said we could have a day off for today, would you mind going outside? maybe it could help you cope with.. what you're feeling." you glanced at yvane's sitting figure at the only table in your room, maybe she's right, maybe a little fresh air could get your mind off of things.

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-lexi