Trapped(Completed)

Come Clean

I thought about what Helen said and she was right about everything. Hunter would be done working for them soon and he'd be on his way doing something else. I decided that Adam was like my safety net. He was my go-to guy if things went wrong with the other guy. Hunter was like my dangerous and inner teen, but also the fun adult. Hunter was more of someone I wanted rather than needed. Whereas I needed my safety net for whenever Hunter would or could hurt me(not physically, but emotionally). Maybe I should tell Adam that I'm attracted to Hunter, but its just a phase. Hunters got that bad boy thing and that has to be why I like him so much. It can't be love because love doesn't exist. When my parents died and I survived I took it differently than most kids. Most kids would cry and beg for their parents, but I just shut down. For a while, I never spoke, ate, or left a room someone put me in. I could go days, weeks, and even months without food and when they finally got me to speak I said; 'You can't love me because love doesn't exist. It can't exist.' After that day I acted more, but still never spoke. "Emma is everything okay?" Adam asked. I had been standing here on the patio for a good 2 hours unmoving and unspeaking just thinking. "Just thinking," I said.

"About?" He pushed.

"I'm going to come clean with you about Hunter," I said.

"You're attracted to him." He said.

"How'd you know?" I asked.

"He's him. Buff, mysterious, all the things women love." He said.

"Why didn't you tell me anything?" I asked.

"I wanted you to come clean. Do you not want this marriage?" He asked.

"I don't know what I want Adam. I think I want him, but I scared if things go well he'll disappear or hurt me." I said.

"Hurt you." He said.

"Break my heart," I said.

"Makes more sense." He said.

"What should I do?" I asked.

"Whatever you want. It's your choice." He said.

"Seriously. I hate choice right now." I said.

"How about you to talk to him about these feelings." He said.

"That's so embarrassing," I said.

"How?" He asked.

"I can't just walk up to him and say hey Hunter I'm attracted to you," I said.

"Maybe try using different words or write a letter." He suggested.

"Letters say I'm scared so I wrote you a letter about my feelings," I said.

"What about using different words." He said.

"Sure that'll work. It won't freak him out not one little bit." I said sarcastically. At least there was an upside to this. I finally came clean about how I feel to Adam. Now I just had to do all of this with Hunter.