Lovesick

Lovesick 14

It's both unnerving and fascinating to see.

"That's good then." Selene trained her eyes on his longer hair, it's almost past his shoulder now. It's more irritating to look at than usual.

She averted her gaze then spoke, "We'll talk later, for now clean yourself. You reek of blood. Have someone to cut your hair too, it's long." At that statement, Valentine clutched his hair, then silently smelled himself.

He clenched his fist in shame. I must've stink! I must've looked unsightly! He almost forgot that he's still coated in blood. His Lady Selene must be disgusted with him.

How incredibly foolish of him!

He's been waiting for her arrival for so long and perfectly groomed himself everyday.

Of all times! She just had to see this repulsive sight of his. He hung his head in self-loathing.

He didn't dare to lift his head but forced himself when he heard his Lady Selene's voice again.

"Then brother Jun, I will be going now. Please rest too, thank you for your understanding a while ago." Selene flashed a genuine smile towards her brother and walked out of the room.

Leaving both Jun and Valentine alone.

Jun's soft expression lingered for a while then disappeared when he looked at Valentine's side. "How is it?"

"I disposed of everyone but the leader, he's currently at the storage in the east warehouse. I also checked the boxes and it's just as you said."

"Hmmm, that's good. Go back to your room for now and wait for Selene's instruction," Jun took a seat and fumbled through the paperworks on the table.

Let's see if she'll still lend you to me......

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Selene gazed at Valentine's shorter hair. Although it's still disgusting to look at, she appreciated the fact that she doesn't have to stare at his long, eye-catching hair framing his face anymore.

"I'm sorry for letting you see me in such state a while ago Lady Selene." Valentine broke the silence and tentatively apologized. It truly slipped his mind to keep himself presentable and clean beacause of the excitement from seeing his Lady Selene again.

Selene merely took a glance at his face then trained her eyes on the book in her hand.

After a few moments of silence, she spoke up, "Listen to my brother's commands Valentine. For every order, abide and make sure not to disappoint him," Selene paused then continued. "And after you got back, don't show yourself to me, it's appalling to see you in such sorry state." Valentine initially thought that she disregarded his apology because she doesn't care but as he suspected his Lady Selene was truly disgusted with his appearance a while ago.

It made his heart tighten in self-deprecation. The surging emotion was like a needle prickling him. It made him disgusted in his own skin.

"I apologize Lady Selene, please punish me..." He can only hung his head in shame and ask for his retribution.

Although he felt ashamed of his actions a while ago, he also felt guilty since he knew that he also enjoyed the pain that he's asking for.

I felt the most connected with Lady Selene when she punishes me.

The rapid thumping of Valentine's heart and the tightening of his throat were the signs of his undulating excitement. He clenched his fists to hide the slight tremors of his fingers.

"What do you think do you deserve?" Selene, like a piece of a calm painting, said steadily while still looking down to her book. It was obvious that she was not paying attention to the man in front of her, missing the obvious sight of him being excited by the gleam of his eyes.

"A hundred lashes and the rope suspension Lady Selene." Valentine can almost feel the rough material of the rope tightening against his neck, making him unable to breath. The light-headedness and suffocation.

While he struggle to breathe as he can only look at the blurry image of his Lady Selene in front of him. Her gaze on him, her focus on him while he choked and teared up.

It made him shiver in delight. The anticipation made his pair of blue and hazel eyes to widen.

Valentine stared at his Lady Selene with expectant gaze.

He wanted to be to be punished.

He was bad and disappointed her, he can only be forgiven when he's punished.

"Ah that's what you really think?" Selene finally lifted her gaze to stare at him. Her eyes widened for a fraction when he saw the expectant look on his eyes.

The way he tenses up when I look at him.

Selene can already guess that he must  be feeling tremendously guilty. In that thought, she smiled.

Valentine firmly nodded. He felt that he should pick something that will make him bleed more so his Lady Selene can tend to his wounds for more than an hour but he also think that she must be tired from her journey. So he only said those two since he doesn't want her to be exhausted and sick.

"Then.......we shouldn't do that." Selene calmly said after seeing his wordless response. Valentine didn't react much but he was confused inside.

Why?.....

"I feel like the punishment shouldn't be within the offenders expectation and limits." Selene stood up from her seat to stand in front of Valentine. "You like to be punished for your mistake right?"

Valentine nodded again, seemingly like a pecking chicken from the way he eagerly bobbed his head.

"Then I'll leave it to you," Selene smiled in front of him, loving the way he frowned in discontent. "Punish yourself."

"The grave of your sin, you should know it. So I order you to....punish yourself and think about it." Valentine opened his mouth to protest but his Lady Selene spoke again.

"Think how much you've displeased me tonight." Valentine dug his nails inside his palm. His Lady Selene's words were like daggers that stab his mind.

"And how appalling you are in my eyes as soon as I get back home," Selene felt the overwhelmingly good feeling of seeing him bothered and humiliated.

"Think about it."