This chapter includes self harm so if this is a strong topic for you please skip the parts that include self harm or skip the chapter
Katniss pov:
I run deep in the meadow under the willow and I just look around of how peaceful and beautiful this place is before my tears cloud my vision I have never cried, last time I cried it was when my dad died. I can't believe Peeta kissed Delly. He promised to always stay with me he broke my promise so I will break mine. I make my way to the little cabin my dad build in the meadow where no one ever goes. I go to where the weapons are I brush my hands across the bow but I make my way to the small throwing knives I grab one and I stab it into my wrist once, twice, three times and I stop I just go down on my knees and the pain in my wrist doesn't hurt as bad as the pain in my heart. My wrist starts to bleed so I grab the medical kit and put some of the bandages around my wrist. I keep crying and I choose to stay strong I get up brush the tears off my eyes and go home.
I walk into my house and I see all the girls looking.
"Looking for something?" I ask that startles them but they come up to me and they all hug me.
"Kat are you on?" Asks Annie.
"Yeah" I say but my voice cracks.
"What happened to your wrist?!?" Asks Glimmer.
"I just want to be alone please" I say they all look concerned.
"Just go" I say they all leave and I just go upstairs and flip on my bed. I think about Peeta and I can't let him affect me so I get up take a shower and brush my teeth I change into my some pyjama shorts and I grab a big hoodie and I realize it's Peeta's but I still wear it since it's comfy. I lay down in my bed but I can't sleep the house is so quiet I don't know why we live in such a huge place no one is ever here. I start to think about Peeta I can't stop thinking about him. I start to sing.
Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times
Oh-whoa, why can't you
Why can't you just let me go?
Strung out on a feeling, my hands are tied
Your face on my ceiling,
I fantasize
Oh, I can't control it, I can't control it
(I can't control it)
I try to replace it with city lights
I'll never escape it,
I need the high
Oh, I can't control it, I can't control it
(Oh)
You keep makin' it harder to stay
But I still can't run away
I gotta know, why can't you
Why can't you just let me go?
Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times
Oh-whoa, why can't you
Why can't you just let me go?
Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times
Oh-whoa, why can't you
Why can't you just let me go?
I tasted heaven, now I can't live without it
I can't forget you and your love is the loudest
Oh, I can't control it, I can't control it
(Can't control it)
You keep making it harder to stay
But I still can't run away
I gotta know why can't you
Why can't you just let me go?
Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my
mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times
Oh-whoa, why can't you
Why can't you just let me go?
Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times
Oh-whoa, why can't you
Why can't you just let me go?
Can't get you off my mind
Why can't you just let me go?
(Million times)
Million times
I wanna know why can't you, why can't you?
I wanna know why can't you, why can't you?
I gotta know why can't you
Why can't you just let me go?
I finish singing and I start to think that's a good song I just made that up ( let's all pretend Katniss made that song up) I start to write it down and I start to cry because that song is about Peeta. But I can't forget that song. I go to the music studio Plutarch uses for some movies when they want to make some music affects. Yes this house has a music studio but it also has a ball pit. I put down a beat and I like it. After I am done I go to sleep thinking about Peeta.
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