Always

Chpater 51

Katniss pov:

I can't believe Jim is Peeta's uncle. He was my parole officer for like a month until I didn't need one. Can't I have one normal day? We are having a small party at my house for Peeta's birthday. Peeta is driving his new car. I'm in the passenger seat. I am looking out the window. I'm thinking about that little girl Sofia. She reminded me of a little me. Peeta seems to notice my mood.

"Katniss what are you thinking of?" He asks.

"That little girl Sofia. And your jerky uncle" I mutter the last part hoping her didn't hear it. He chuckles and puts his hand on my thigh and keeping one hand on the wheel. I feel warm and calm every time he touches me. I sigh.

"I'm sorry" I say.

"For what?" He asks.

"About what happened with your uncle and me. And I always have to be sorry for something" I say.

"It's ok Katniss" he reassures me. We keep driving and he parks I see the groups cars are all here. I open the door and everyone jumps out yelling.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEETA!!". Peeta smiles

"Great now we just have to wait for Katniss's birthday so we will all be 17" says Finnick. I roll my eyes. I am the youngest in the group by a month or so.

"Bro is that your car?" Asks Marvel looking out the window.

"Yep, Katniss got is for me" he says.

"Nice" Says Cato.

Soon Peeta's brothers, dad and uncle come over. We all have a nice get together. I end up having to talk to Jim.

"Hey" I say plainly. He grabs my arm and brings me to an empty room.

"Don't you play nice" he says.

"Oh thank goodness because I don't want to be nice to you" I say. I hear something or someone in the distance but I ignore it.

"So what do you want with my nephew?" He asks me.

"Excuse me"

"Katniss please don't hurt him"

"I would never ever hurt Peeta" I say.

"Wouldn't you?"

"No I LOVE him"

"Will he still love you if he knew about your past?"

"I-I...."

"Katniss we both know what you've done"

"Stop because I stopped. The capital is the one who did those things" I say

"You left the red room but it doesn't make you a good person. We both know you didn't want to stop. You didn't have something to live for you wanted to find something to die for and you couldn't even do that. Your dangerous"

"No-no I'm not" I say.

"Yeah right I know who you are-"

"I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO I AM!!" I yell. He seems shocked and I am also shocked. I walk out of the room and bump into a body while I walk out of the door. I ignore it and walk to my room. I go back downstairs and Peeta looks at me weird. I look away. I ignore Jim for the rest of the party. I see prim talking to Peeta. It's nice. Soon the party dies out and everyone leaves. Prim even goes to her friends house because they have a sleepover over weekend. Mom abs Plutarch go on a date and won't be back until tomorrow morning I think.

"Thanks for the car and the party" he says.

"Anything for you" I whisper into his ear. He shivers then kisses my cheek. I cuddle close to him.

"I love you" I say.

"I love you too" he says. I smile into the kiss. When we pull apart Peeta looks like he has something on his mind.

"What's up?" I ask as he gets off me.

"I heard the argument you and my uncle Jim had" he says.

"Oh well sorry" I say.

"Katniss...you don't know who you are?" He asks.

"I don't think I'm anyone really" I admit.

"Katniss everyone is someone" he says.

"Peeta your a baker, a painter and so much more what am I?" I ask more to myself than to him.

"Peeta. The 'red room' where they trained me I wanted to find myself. But all I found was a version of myself that I didn't like. I can't find myself. I don't know who I am" I say.

"You'll find out who you are and what you want to be" he says holding me. I love him so much.

"You know that I will love you no matter what. No matter what you did in your past" he says.

"Always?" I ask.

"Always" he reassures me.