Not just a fan..

Leaving

The Wassup shoot was awkward for me and Kar. She was jealous, I could tell.

For me it was awk bc of Sammy. He acts like he loves me but after sex its bleh.

I was purposely ignoring him and flirting with Kenny to see his reaction. Kenny smiled and blushed as I complimented his smile.

"Hey baby." Sammy grinned being possessive and pulling me into his chest as we sat in the sand. "Hi." I said confused. Why does he act like he wants me when all hes does is use me?

"Im gonna go talk to Kar." Kenny said giving us privacy. "What do you think youre doing?" He asked angrily. "Being friendly."

"Fuck that. You were flirting with him!" He hissed as I scooted away to face him. "Sammy! You can't use me and expect me to act like everything is okay!" I yelled standing. "What? When did i use you?" "Sammy all you want is sex! The first time was amazing and now i feel like you just are keeping me around until i leave."

"God! You're such a pain in the ass! Why? Maybe you should just go back to the house because I'm not going to fight with you." He said scoffing and pushing past me eith his shoulder. "Fine. I'm going back to the house." I mumbled.

I found Kar and explained that i was going back to the house.

And by house, i meant Missouri.

I got to the Jacks house and packed all of my stuff again. I got a taxi to the airport and was on my way.

I refuse to be used and talked down to by him. It's not fair.

I texted Karlee that I'd see her in a few days and i silenced my phone as i seated. I wish i was with him but he doesn't want me. He wants my body.

I just need distance from him so i can think.

My eyes drooped as the weight of events crushed me.

Tears threatened to fall from my eyes but i quickly wiped them away.

I wish i didn't love him like i do.

My phone vibrated with calls from Nate, Kar and the Jacks, but not Sammy.

I picked up the phone to Nate and was bombarded with questions. "Nate stop." I sobbed into the phone as he asked about what Sammy did.