Lost My Way🔞《 kth~jjk × Y/n 》

34) lonely

You had a long dream. You dreamed of the chalk powder all over the air in the classroom, the boy waiting patiently for you to come home with the schoolbag on one shoulder, the lonely flowers nurtured by your Grandpa in the courtyard on the day of Grandpa’s death, and yourself, who stood in the empty corridor of the hospital and wept hopelessly, with a pale face.

When the boy with the schoolbag on one shoulder grew up, you became the one who waited for the boy to come home. Flowers in the garden withered, and you vowed not to grow flowers anymore.

It was already dark outside when you woke up. You still felt giddy and pushed open the bedroom door in a daze. There was no light in the living room. Smoke filled the room. Taehyung stood by the window and smoked. The cigarette flamed in the dark room, and the cigarette ends had accumulated in the ashtray.

“I have urged you to quit smoking.”you said in a soft voice.

Taehyung was stunned and subconsciously put out the cigarette, “I’m sorry.”

You turned on the light, “You smoke when you’re upset.”

“What’s bothering you?” you sat on the platform with your forehead against the window, looking far into the distance.

Taehyung smiled and bent down to touch the top of your hair, “Don’t worry about me. It’s just work.”

You did not say anything. You felt dizzy and blood dropped on the snow-white blanket. When you stretched out your fingers in a trance to touch the bloodstains, the blood flowed faster from your nose because you lowered your head.

Taehyung was shocked and stretched out his arm to stop the unstoppable blood.

“What are you thinking about? Look up, come on! Look up!” taehyung was worried and squatted down to let you lie supine on his lap. Taehyung and your clothes and hands were sticky and covered with blood.

It took a long time to stop the bleeding. Taehyung held you in his arms and went to the bathroom to clean you. He carefully adjusted the water temperature for you.

“Why did you suddenly have a nosebleed?”

You frowned, your lips looked pale because of excessive loss of blood, “The weather is too dry.”

“Winter in the north is dry and cold. I’ll have someone buy a humidifier for you tomorrow.” taehyung washed your face. He wanted to take a bath with you since both of your clothes were stained with blood, but he was pushed away by you.

You used much of your strength to push taehyung and clutched your own collar tightly. Your nails even turned blue because of force.

Taehyung was stunned, “What’s wrong?” He was a little embarrassed with grievance and felt puzzled, “Your clothes are dirty.”

“I can clean by myself.” your eyes didn’t fell on taehyung and you still looked resistant.

Taehyung’s face got gloomy and he said coldly, “You are so dirty, with the smell of blood. I have no desire for you at this moment.”

You knew that he had misunderstood, but you didn’t knew how to explain. You could only watch taehyung wash his hands without saying a word and then leave the bathroom. Just after five minutes, with a slam taehyung left home.

Quite well. With so many obedient lovers outside, taehyung didn’t need to keep his temper and take care of you here. You slowly took off your clothes. Your arms were covered with pinholes which looked terribly blue on your body.

You embraced yourself in the warm water of the bathtub, and suddenly you were a little afraid. You felt it was time to make some sort of decision, such as where you should end up. No matter where you died, it was troublesome enough. If you died at home and nobody knew this for over ten days, you would surely look awkward. It was not good to frighten taehyung.

You suddenly laughed when you thought about it. You realized that the process of a person’s death was easy, but the difficult thing was aftermath of death.

Hot water softened your body, but you didn’t stay in the water for a long time. You wiped yourself up while you still had some strength. You carefully put on your thick pajamas and felt a little warm.

In the living room, the smell of smoke had not dissipated. The smell of Cigarette was not unpleasant. But this smell made you painful.

When you felt the headache, you found that you had forgotten to take medicine all day, so you forced yourself to boil water and take the medicine. A handful of pills would usually torture your stomach for a long time.

You lay on the sofa, waiting for the efficacy of pills. The kittens played around you. Their paws made you feel itchy.

When you heard the key open the door, you thought it was a hallucination until the man with a gloomy face stood in front of you.

“Stop playing with cats and wash your hands for dinner,” taehyung still wore a long face, but he wandered outside and bought a meal.

“Stir-fried Pig’s Liver can enrich your blood,” taehyung poured the dishes into plates and said in a cold tone, but his expression was mild.

You sat at the dining table, with your mind wandering. You thought of taehyung who really would not be indifferent to you for such a trifle in the old days.