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Part 5: Come Along

Last night was awkward to say the least.

After the front stoop confession session- Max ended up leaving with Luna.

He never really said anything to me.

I don't know if I hurt his feelings or just made him mad, but thanked Mina and exchanged numbers so he can start scheduling her to babysit.

Mina never asked me what went on outside, but I think she knows it was serious.

There's nothing worse than telling someone they're nervous to be around them.

Even if the intention is sweet or reasonable- it still hurts.

Saturday and Sunday, I spent cleaning.

Ironically.

Mina helped and I tried not to get all upset if something was out of place or was done correctly.

I let it all go. I accept the help. I accept that people do things differently than myself and everyone has a different sense of what's perfect and what's not.

It's so hard though- no micromanaging her.

Not telling her she's doing a half arsed job.

That could be her 100%.

It might seem to me she's only putting in a quarter, but to her- that could be all she has.

A lot of people don't think that way though.

They see someone who looks like they don't take care of themselves or they're lazy: and you probably think that they don't care and they're not trying.

When in reality, just getting up and leaving the house can be the hardest task. They put in that 100% to leave. They put in that 100% to wake up, get out of bed, and try to perform whatever task is asked of them.

We need to start seeing the world that way.

Instead of putting everyone in one box a the box filled of your own expectations and abilities. Because we are all unique and all capable of different things.

So I go easy Mina, because I wish my Gran went easy on me.

"You okay? You been quiet all weekend." Mina asks sweetly as we walk into the Dam.

"Yeah...Just stuck in my head."

"Here comes M..."

"Dr. Helen Sharpe! Mina!"

"Max." Mina and I say at the same time. I look at my phone 7:45 as usual.

"Morning ladies! Here...here." He hands us our drinks- which makes Mina smiles and blush.

I think she's starting to develop a crush on Max.

Most teenage girls who meet him do.

Most adult women who meet him do.

"Thank you. Do you need me to watch Luna?"

"Actually yes- if you're free."

"Am I free Amme?" She looks at me and I nod. "I'm free."

"Sweet, Helen..."

"Hmm?" I look up at him as we slowly walk.

"Are you free?"

"I don't know, Max...Am I?" He has such a different energy today. It's almost like when he first started and was just zipping around, babbling nonsense and making people question his sanity.

"Yyyyy...yes." He draws it out and I can't help but smile.

"I'm free." I say and he fist pumps and bites his bottom lip like her didn't just ask me and then give me permission to be free.