How To Forget Your Crush

Step 11-Expect the unexpected

Step 11-Expect the unexpected

I had heard that we should always expect the unexpected. But if we expected the unexpected, then the unexpected will be the expected and the expected will be the unexpected? Crazy? Well, that's life.

                Thinking back, there were no gossip that flew around the school about Logan and Stacy. All everyone knew was that she was seeing someone. It never occurred to me that they didn't know about her and Logan.

                Even though I should've expected this to happen, I still couldn't help but let my jaw drop and stare at Rebecca's cellphone screen.

From: Stella

OMG!! Breaking News!! Logan and Stacey are officially on! Stacey just said 'yes' 5 mins ago! XDD

I scrolled down and saw a picture of Logan kissing Stacey inside the café we saw them earlier attached to the message.

                Everything around me seemed to turn gray. I felt numb all-over; no emotions, no pain washed over me. I wanted to cry or shout but for what? Who was I to react over that? Did Logan care about me? Did we have any connection, like for example being his ex-girlfriend? No. I thought so too. I was just the crazy girl that had a crush on Logan only to find out that there was no hope of forgetting him, and he just found out that Logan had a girlfriend.

                I was so stupid. Thinking about him this morning. I just want to forget, that's all.

                I looked up to my friends, who were staring at me. I cleared my throat and smiled. "Guys, I'm fine," I said.

                June turned to Becca then punched her on the arm. June maybe a dainty little lady most of the time but when you got on her nerves, you better brace yourself. "What was that for?!" Becca bellowed as she rubbed her arm then glared daggers at June.

                June ignored her death glare and rolled her eyes. "Why did you show that to her? You know she's in an unstable state right now," she said as-a-matter-of-factly.            

"It's for her own good," Becca shot back.

And now they are talking about me like I wasn't with them, I sighed.

                "Guys," I chimed in before things got off-hand. "It's alright. Even if you kept it from me, I'll still know because it'll surely be a talk in school." Their gazes dropped then they remained silent.

                I just sat there and ate my ice cream. I made a mental note to thank God for giving the knowledge for humans to invent ice cream—the most effective comfort food that existed. It took my worries away...for a little bit.

                When I finished I told them that I needed some rest so we went home. They also went back to their own place. I went straight to my room and lied down. I didn't cry, instead I just stared at the ceiling until I got tired. I opened my laptop and logged in to Facebook. It had been a long time since I logged in.

My newsfeed was flooded by comments and pictures of Stacey and Logan. I couldn't believe that the people in school were that shallow to treat this as a big deal. It was as if the couple got engaged. I continued to scroll down. A wedding image—that someone edited by replacing the faces of the happy couple with Stacey and Logan's faces—just showed up. The numbness I had been feeling some hours ago, was starting to get replaced with irritation.

The next day, I wore an outfit that showed my rebellious side—black shirt over a white collared one, black mini skirt and black combat boots. I knew that my Kia Pride wasn't going to go with my getup so I decided to borrow my dad's black sports car.

                I parked my car next to Stacey's when I got to school. I didn't do that on purpose, mind you. She was still there talking to Logan. Before I got down, I did a lip gloss check. I noticed a red car park on the other side. No doubt it's Gavin's. The moment I got down my car, Stacey's and my eyes locked for five seconds then I pulled away.

                When I turned around, I found Gavin standing beside me. "Good morning Tomato! Missed me?" He asked then grinned and pinched my cheek gently.

                I rolled my eyes. "No. Why would I?" I said, but I was smiling.

                "Ouch. How cold of you," he said, feigning hurt.

I giggled. "C'mon," I said then motioned to the school building. Before I took a step away, I quickly glanced at Stacey and Logan. I was not sure if it was just my utter bitterness towards the two of them, but I thought I saw Stacey was glaring at the two of us and not paying attention to Logan? I pulled away then glanced at Gavin who was looking at me intently. I smiled then started to walk.

As we walked, Gavin asked a question that intensified my irritation. He asked, "What do you think of the new couple?"

I sighed in exasperation. "Do I have to answer that? I'm really tired of that topic, you know," I said.

"Oh, are you jealous?"

I stared at him with shock, but I quickly rubbed it off before he could notice it. "Why would I?" I said coolly to mask my shock. Did he know that I had a crush on Logan? I glanced at him. Gavin wasn't looking at me, which was a relief.

He laughed. "Yeah, why would you be if you have me by your side?" he said then looked at me. He laughed again because I blushed at the statement. I punched him playfully on the arm then looked away. "You know, Stacey was my girlfriend."

"I didn't know. When?"

"We just broke up three months ago," he said as if it wasn't a big deal.

"So you're the one who's jealous," I teased then giggled at the thought. Now the tables turned.

He smirked. "Not really," he said. What did he mean by that? He quickly backpedalled, "But it doesn't mean I didn't take our relationship seriously. It's just that...she wasn't really the girl for me."

                We were so deep in our conversation; I didn't notice that we were in front of my locker. "Hold that thought," I told him then took the books I needed then went beside him again. "Is your locker here or on the other side of the building?" I asked.

                "It's on the other side, near the Home Ec room," he said then continued walking. Home Economics was my first period so I decided to walk with him.

                "So what do you mean by 'She's not really the girl for me'?" I asked curiously.

                "Because, I thought I already got over you," he said with a serious tone. My eyes widened with shock and perplexity. Was he serious? "Yeah, you heard right," he said. "I've had feelings for you since fifth-grade."

I still couldn't talk so I just stared at him blankly. Was this his idea of a joke or was he really making a move on me? He placed his hand on my head the whispered, "I know you like Logan, but I'll wait." With that said, he left me staring in the empty space. My feelings are already mixed up...and then Gavin tells me that.

There was a sensation inside me when he told me that. I can't quite put a finger on what that was. It's something new to me...

A/N

 

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