𝘈 𝘙𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘰𝘳 𝘙𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘓𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘚𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 //𝘛.𝘍 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘙𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳 //

Part 5 || 18 - Dr. Calvin Turner

It had been a month since we started IVF, sadly, I didn't get pregnant. One full cycle of IVF takes about three weeks, so yeah, we've only done it once, but I thought I would've been pregnant. I had a random, casual party at my place, just us friends gathering. "Here" Tom offered his half smoked cigarette to me, I was about to take it, but I stopped. "Erm, no thank you" I said pushing his hand down.

"What, are you pregnant or something?" he joked casually making me choke on the glass of water in my hand. He furrowed his eyebrows as I felt a need to vomit. I went to the bathroom and sat at the edge of the toilet but nothing came out. I washed my face and as I was about to head out again, another feeling of vomit came and I sat down near the toilet and again I didn't.

I need to tell someone...

I headed down and pulled Emma to the piano and sat her down. "Whatever I'm about to tell you stays between us and no one other, got it?" I asked subtly, so no one would get suspicious. "Got it" I expected to hear her voice but I heard three. I turned around to see the twins eavesdropping. I shook my head and pulled them near me.

"I think I might be pregnant" I said and Emma stood up with wide eyes. "W-What?" she asked stuttering. "I don't know, but I think I am" I said biting my nails. James pushed my hand down, "Who's the father?" he asked as I looked around to see if anyone was near us. "Nick" I blurted out without properly forming a sentence to make them understand.

"What?! You slept with your brother's gay fiancé?" Emma whisper-yelled but it was enough for people to listen who were standing near us. "Shhh, shhh, Emma, do you need a mic?" I asked rhetorically, "Long story short, they asked me to donate an egg and be their surrogate" I said in one breath as Emma squealed and hugged me tightly.

"That's great!" she said loudly. "What's great?" Tom asked with my phone in his hand. The four of us looked at each other, "Is-is that my phone?" I asked changing the topic. "Yeah, it's Rob" Tom said dryly. I smiled widely and took the phone from him. As promised, he called everyday to check up on me. "James, could you, erm" I said looking at him, he nodded and left. "Hey" I said as I walked to the balcony. "Hi, love. How you feeling?" he asked as I sat down on the mattress.

"Not that great, one cycle of the IVF has been done over a week, and I'm still not pregnant" I huffed making him chuckle. "The doc did tell it was going to take sometime, didn't he?" he asked as I looked into my loft through the balcony to see Tom squinting his eyes like he was trying to intercept what I was talking about. "Well, I am feeling like I'll throw up, but then I don't, so I think I might be, but I did tell James to bring a pregnancy test" I said playing with my toenail.

"Mhm, do you want me to be there, you know when you see it?" he asked softly. "No, no, no, Rob, I think it's pretty late there and you just came back from filming, you head on to sleep, if it's good news, I'll call you" I said standing up. "You sure, darling?" he asked once again. "Yes, I am, Pattybear, don't worry"

After a few minutes, James and Oliver arrived with two pregnancy tests, the store was just down my the block, so it didn't take them a while. Everyone in the party had no clue what was happening except for the others who knew but Tom was pretty suspicious. I discreetly took the bag from him and headed upstairs, after taking the test, I waited and waited. God, the time was killing me.

Negative.

My head hung low as I went down. The three of them looked at me, I shook my head, "I guess I just ate something funny" I said and picked up a red cup that contained water in it, I didn't want anyone to ask why I wasn't drinking and everything. So, Emma, James and Oliver know, that's nice.

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Over the next month, we had another cycle of IVF, but no luck. It was now February and we were going to start filming today. Nick and Julius cannot come to every visit because they have lives in America, so I agreed to go alone to the visits. Rob had come back and today's first scene was with him and my mom.