Remember the dude I liked?
Remember how I said I thought I loved him?
Welp that was only because people say if you like someone for longer than two years it's love.
I was not, am not nor will I ever be in love with him.
In fact, I'm getting over him?
Oml it's so weird because I have liked him for as long as I can remember but my romantic feelings have faded a lot and I realised today I no longer feel the butterflies or giddiness around him.
I am not completely over him yet though, I think I have a tiny ounce of feelings left for him.
Again, it's so weird cause I have always liked him. It has been a solid fact in my life. The sky was blue, the grass was green and I liked him.
But I'm getting over him.
Damn I've really changed haven't I?
Like- I still really want us to be good friends but I simply don't feel the same way I did a few months ago and I had to see him up close to realise that.
And furthermore it is the first time in a LONG ass time I have gone without crushing on someone or liking someone. Sometimes my feelings for him were surpressed and I got other crushes as time went by but in the end I always realised I still liked him and ended up with him as the person I like.
I think I haven't gone without liking someone since before kindergarden... I had childhood crushes during kindergarden and I also had other crushes before I moved to the primary school I went to and started liking him.
Hold on before kindergarden there was a childhood friend who I had a childhood crush on
WTF
I LITTERALY HAVE NEVER GONE WITHOUT HAVING A CRUSH OR SOMEONE FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER MYSELF?
uM wthh?
How hadn't I noticed it before?
I feel more free but also like there is something missing... It has always been such a big part of me?
I sound like a dramatic teenager rn but whatever let me live my teenage years however I want them to.
Lmao to freedom I guess.
-Sophie
PS. Schools opened in my country and I'm studying a whole fucking lot
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