Stories of a hormonal girl in the aro spec ↝ Rants, facts, tags.

I'm back?

Hi! I'm very aware nobody cares about this account, I mean I don't either I've been MIA for like two years lmaoooo but anyways I'm back so i decided to add this here for my own enjoyment kinda like a little timelapse.

Life update? Sure. Just finished the second grade of highschool meaning next year is my final (FUCKING FINALLY) and then its the actual final graduation exams (the panhellenics) and OH MY GOD this is weird. I've kinda been preparing for these exams for the entirety of my school career and my ass does not like change or dealing with my issues face on soo its definitely... something.

I'm 17, 18 in April which isn't very near but it also kinda is.... less than a year. ITS WEIRD.

Oh I am not gonna use grammar for this btw I'm on my period rn and minding my mistakes is not helping the whole relax and forget thing. Anyhow,

My hair is still dyed; you shouldn't have expected anything different from me tbh, who am I without my unnatural hair? I've been circling hot pink, red and purple for about two years atp and now I'm going back to my roots with blue (if it sticks over the pink that is). 

My friendships and social life have turned inside out, quite literally. The people I thought would always stick by me are those who abandoned me pretty painfully. For me, that is, I'm pretty sure they're currently living their best lives. I pulled through though. It took a while because losing the ones we love and still seeing them right there every day HURTS like hell. But it's going better.

I haven't been social since I was seven but this year I've made an attempt to be more outgoing and it's slowly but steadily paying off. I'm getting close to people, maybe not as close as I'd like and I don't really have a stable friendgroup but things are looking up. The last two years were pretty lonely.

I've also learned some stuff about friendships I had, some I kept, some not. I am realising who my real friends are more and more. I still have online friends and if you old ones from around here happen to see this one day, contact me please! I'd love to chat.

My Harry Potter phase has been going on and off with intevrals, went through a huge mcyt period which I'm still not entirely out off but the Brighton Biter (iykyk) faded it significantly. I have been through various fandoms and short phases, none of them stuck around for long other than this. I'm currently into Marvel again but I think it's going away. 

Started (and have significantly improved in) drawing. I drew a girl I'm kind of into today. She's very pretty. 

My dream job is still a physicist or comp programmer and hardware designer or a mix of all of these, except I'm closer to fulfilling this dream than before. Just one long final push left, I suppose and then the journey begins. (I know it will be a long journey as well, but the start is near)

I still read and recently finished SoC (I LOVED IT), recently being a figure of speech because it's been a while but I then started reading HP again (what can I say, some things never change) and got sucked into fanfics again. 

I have been cheating on wp with ao3 for a while but hey! I'm back now. Let's see how long this lasts :)

Been gaming a lot, Genshin, Starrail and minecraft mostly. Lore games own my heart but mc is really chill too. Don't really have people to play tho.

My identity is still a mess. I think I'm arospec but also I do feel some form of romantic attraction sometimes, never went after it tho. Whatever will be will be I guess. Oh, I realised I'm nonbinary and agenderfluid though, leaning to my feminine side still. It's a journey of self discovery and I have no idea if it ends.

I don't have anything else to talk about concerning myself, so I'll also speak in regards of those who cannot. If you didn't expect this, I'm disappointed. This has always been my rant book after all. 

If you somehow live under a rock and haven't heard, there are multiple ongoing genocides in our world at the moment. Palestine has been under attack from Israel for tens of years and for many of us, it had went unnoticed due to propaganda, our youthful naivety and the acts of their supporters, the united states. As one of the greatest powers in our century and in the name of supposed freedom they've been wiping out the population of Palestine leaving less than half of it so far.

The United Nations hadn't taken action until now and there's no guarantee that anything will change. You might want more information about how or why. I am definitely not the best person to speak about this and I do not want to mess information up so I will be leaving resources below. In the meantime what you can do to help is join the boycotts of brands funding this genocide like starbucks, macdonald's, fanta/coca cola, kfc etc. The list will also be included below. You can click on this link ( arab.org ) to help fund Palestinian philanthropic services. You can learn more and help others learn as well from legitimate sources like "Times of Gaza". You can, if you're able, donate to Palestinian people and families in need.

While this has been the latest and most destructive show of violence, sadly it is not the only one. The people from The Democratic Republic of Congo are also being genocided and exploited, being exposed to radiation of multiple forms and dangerous circumstances and substances by being used in the mines of Cobalt and other ingredients used to make smart devices and electronics, vapes and more. You can also research, donate and boycotte to help these people out.

These are not the only ones. Sudanese and Yemeni people, the people of Haiti, Lebanon and Hawaii are also going through similar circumstances. Tigri and West Papua are suffering too. There are so many people who've lost their lives, so many communities suffering because of colonialism and greed. Please, read below and learn more if you dont already know.

Resources links:

 https://docs.google.com/document/d/1S_EA9f7buyt680AWZIwP0-IFj1qbVFdzT0ZBtGeAVv4/edit

https://docs.google.com/document/d/e/2PACX-1vSy0XXwSyYRnMOxSWNV_q82D2DWeEpqpwphfYtDA8vJwUOR0k9g_8CyU0edVt7HzoUqV0n3hplklSt9/pub

Palestine's boycotte list: (BDS list) https://bdsmovement.net/Act-Now-Against-These-Companies-Profiting-From-Genocide (also included above)

Haiti: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1-opam9Lus-LhTTkdUX6A2jkpELCV5RvHl0h2eKTDazI/edit#heading=h.unxmknxl9c7t

West Papua: https://t.co/m18f5f94Oq ( freewestpapua.org )

Tigray: freetigray.com

You can find more about each and every one of these in the first two links. Don't be silent if you can speak. Try to help these people be free.

That's all for today, and for this life update. Will I be here and active in the future? who knows, not me (i never lost controll). If you're reading this and have stuck around, thank you from my heart. See you around, maybe

Soph/Rj/Fern (oh yes i use all these now)